So, I thought, I could write down, what I did in Berlin … if someone is interested :P
I really had an awesome time there and I want to write everything down, what I can remember, because in a year I want to read the entry again and smile about the fact, how happy I was :3
You know, the “day” begun exactly at Wednesday at 7 AM *sigh*
I was so excited and nervous, that I couldn’t sleep the night before. So, I was awake the whole time until 4 AM. My parents and my brother were of course extremely tired, but they brought me to the airport. I didn’t expect that they would come with me to the check-in and I sent them home, because I saw how tired they were. So, we cuddled a lot, I waved when they drove back and then I went to the airport. I really love the Airport in Frankfurt, it is awesome, the atmosphere is great, but it is annoying when you have to walk 1 kilometre until you’ve reached your check-in counter. So, after walking for good 8 minutes I’ve found my check-in counter. And it was closed o.O
Of course I started to get afraid and felt. In such situations, I tend to freak out completely =/
Anyway, there were people in a row and I thought: Okay, I’ll stand there, too. Maybe I am right here…
And I was. I had a really nice guy who checked me in and then I had a whole hour to wait. I walked through the terminal, listened Dir en Grey of course and made some pictures. I really want to upload them, but right now my batteries are empty and I have problems with my cable =/
I hope so much, I can upload the pictures tomorrow *prays for it*
Anyway, after sitting around and observing the people, I could go to my Gate \^^/
And I was the first one there. So, I sat in the front of a huge window, send Jutta some messages with my cell phone because I was bored (and she was still sleeping *giggles*) and watched the airplanes. With the time more people came … and 90 % of them were business men. I felt a little bit awkward :P
Seemed, like I would be the only normal person there XD
So, short after 7 AM we could go in the airplane and I had a seat on the window \^^/
But unfortunately we had to wait to long to our start =/
But when the plane left the ground, I felt so free. I think, that is one of the most precious feelings I have. It is so hard to describe it, but every time when I am in a plane and this is leaving the ground I can feel what a huge peace is filling my heart. Like I would leave everything behind me. Even myself ^^
So, the flight was okay. Just 50 minutes and that is really short for me, because normally I have flights between 12 and 15 hours ;D
But it was okay. And the captain was nice :D
So, we arrived at 08:10 AM (not 07.55 AM) Berlin. And when the plane landed, I started to become really nervous about seeing Wiebke. I thought the whole time: Oh please, I hope she will like me. And will not be shocked when she sees seeing me.
So, I fetched my travelling bag and left the departure lounge. And my heart stopped. Wiebke wasn’t there … I swear, I was close to freak out. I grabbed my cellphone, wanted to give her a call and realized, that I didn’t saved her number on my cellphone … ARGH U_U
So, I called my mum in the morning, forced her to look to my firebird and searching for Wiebkes phone number. I was really totally agitated and had horrible visions of me being alone in Berlin.
So, my mum found the cell phone (what was a wonder, because her pc-skills are like zero), I finished the call, turned myself around and was like … Wiebke? O_o
She stood next to me and was searching for me, lol. Both of us cuddled us first and I was so glad to see her. And she is adorable. I really love her.
She said then: Stop, wait.
She went some steps back, put a Kaoru-Flag out of her bag and waved with it. So, I got my Kaoru-Fläggsche :D
Then we left the Airport and drove to her home à female student apartment-sharing community. I thought the way to the flat was sooooooo long. ^^
But when we arrived finally her home and went in, I felt comfortable in the first second. I really loved it there. And then I’ve met Jelena, Wiebkes friend and roommate. And she is adorable, too. I think, with Wiebke and Jelena it was love at the first sight :P
So, I’ve changed my clothes and forced Wiebke to drive with me to the “Saturn”, where the signing session were. I knew, she wanted to see Dir en Grey, but she was so NOT in the mood for the fangirlies XD
I really hoped so much that I would have the chance to see Dir en Grey and to get an autograph. But to be honest, I didn’t believe it. I thought the whole time: Forget it, Anke, you are never lucky when it is about such things.
I excepted that I would stand in the row, it would be 4 PM and Dir en Grey would leave the place for the signing session and I would be one of the losers, who got no autograph ^^
So, we drove to the Saturn. And damn, the way there was so damn long. I know one thing, Berlin is way too big for me. You have to walk a lot, even when you are using a bus, a train or something like that. And I am really, really lazy ^^
For someone like me, who is locked up the most of the time in her room, it was a huge journey :P
So, we crossed the “Gedächtniskirche” on the way to the Saturn, but … I didn’t like it. You know, I love churches and I love architecture, but this one was ugly. At least in my eyes ^^
That’s not really my taste ^^
So, when we came into near of the Saturn we discovered the first fans ^^
Of course all in black, typical mix between emo and visu. And I thought to myself: Anke, you are way too old for that XD
So, we went in the Saturn and had no Idea, what we had to do, lol. So I made Wiebke the suggestion to search for the CD-section and I was right :D
There was a stage o_O
And behind of that a huge screen, where they showed “The rose trims again” DVD … of course without a tone, rofl.
Maybe they did it because of the other customers :P
Here are some pictures :)
The staff from the Saturn sharing out water bottles for the fans o_O
I was really surprised. It was a great gesture for the people who’ve waited more than 3 hours … like Wiebke and me :P (we were there at 11.30 AM)
Some fans. And do you see the girls in the strange yellow plushie-thingie? They were a Pikachu and a yellow bunny. OMFG! At a Dir en Grey signing session? Are they serious? That was so fucking ridiculous, seriously. And shameful.
I mean … Dir en Grey, come on… I am 100% sure, that they guys backbite about the girls after seeing them, because … that is not okay for Dir en Grey. It’s okay for An Café and “maybe” for Miyavi, but NOT for Dir en Grey ^^
The stage ^^
The funniest thing was that some “fans” started to scream when the stuff put the five chairs on the stage o_O
Freaks, I swear. All of them are fucking freaks ^^
The stage again … and even when I saw five chairs and thought the whole time, that Kyo wouldn’t come on stage ^^
So, Wiebke and I’ve waited for 3 ½ hours. And yes, it was long ^^
Of course the fans started to stand up (why? oO) an hour before >_>
So, we had to wait *sigh*
And when I looked above my shoulder I saw a lot of fans o_O
I was so happy to stand near the entrance. I think, it was exactly 3 PM and the girls started to scream -__- (the next girl who will start to scream in my near at the next Diru-event, will get a slap from me, I swear). Because I am so damn tiny, I stood on my toes and saw at first Shinya and then Toshiya. And I was like: OMFG, squeeeeeeeeeeeee \^^/
They are real!!! … but only in my thoughts :D
I said the whole time to Wiebke: Oh my god, look at Totchi, he looks so cool, so cool! :D
And then I saw a piece of Kaorus hair and it was like heaven. He was really there.
I swear, my heart jumped like crazy and I smiled over my whole face. With every step closer to them I couldn’t believe it more, lol.
It was so unreal that Dir en Grey were really there. So, when I got through this little entrance, we stood in a row and I had the perfect view on the stage. I know, I repeat myself over and over again, but I couldn’t believe it. They looked so cool. And so normal at the same time. I saw some fans crying and their hands shook like crazy, but I was surprisingly very “normal”. The only thing was that I smiled like crazy ^^
And I thought, when they are signing my DVD, I’ll try to get a handshake. I mean, they couldn’t say more than “no”, right?
So, with every step I came closer to the table, where the guys sat. And then I stood in front of die. I said “hi” and gave him my dvd. He signed it and I know exactly that I looked at his right hand and his tattoo. And I thought: Wow, that looks really good on him *laughs*
He gave me the dvd back, I sat thank you, smiled and he gave me a little, shy smile. And then I did it. I reached him my hand and like in slow motion, he took his pen in his other hand and returned my handshake. God, I was so happy. I said “thank you” and smiled and he said “thank you”, too :D
And then … Kyo. My first thought was, when I looked in his face, omfg, he is a babyface O_O
Seriously, he is looking like 23 o.O
I said “hi” to him and he nodded to greeting. And … I know, it sounds strange, but that was my impression. He looked at me very long. Like he would look behind my mask. It was like checking me what kind of person I am. And I respond his very intense view at me. I smiled and when he signed my dvd, I looked at his hand and his tattoos. I took the dvd on me and said “thank you”, gave him my hand and he took it. And it was … his handshake was so gentle. He is such a wonderful person, even when he said no word (or he did and I didn’t hear it, because my whole world was only Dir en Grey & myself, lol). And I was really happy that he wore no sunglasses, because … you could really see in his eyes and I am deeply appreciate this ♥~
So, I went a step forward and stood in front of Kaoru. At first I looked in his face and even when he wore sunglasses, I could see how he looked at me. I smiled (okay, why I am writing this down? Because I smiled the whole time ^^), said “hi” and gave him my dvd. And I looked down on his tattooed arms. Damn, that looks good. And yes, he is hot. He has such an amazing aura, that is absolutely amazing. I was so glad when he gave me his hand and smiled at him. He nooded like “There you are, Hun” XD
The next one was Toshiya and he was really, really inviting. His gaze was interested and he checked the fans like Kyo. But he smiled, too and was really adorable. When he gave me his hand and I said “thank you”, he answered with “Dankeschön” XDDD
And Shinya is cute. His voice is so gentle and he was so nice and adorable. When I left the table, I turned around to Wiebke and smiled at her like crazy.
I stood for a little while in the near of the table and tried to make some pictures of Dir en Grey. I think, two or three worked, but when I had the perfect sight on the guys, my batteries were empty. I really was so close to scream. But anyway, I got autographs of Dir en Grey :D
Here two pictures which Wiebke made with her cell phone :D
And here are some clips, I’ve found at youtube :333
One of the funniest things at the signing session was the fact, that one girl brought some old visual kei-pictures for signing. But Kaoru and Kyo scratched their faces out XDDD
So, when Wiebke got her autographs, we left the place and went to an ice cream parlour for something to drink. We were both bouncy and happy and Wiebke giggled the whole time about my face expression :P
So, after an hour of relaxing we decided to leave the place to go to the venue. And I guess, we changed the bus/train 3 times until we’ve reached the venue. And I was deadly tired (had 30 hours of no sleep) and my feet hurt like hell. The crowd was quite normal at the beginning and Wiebke, myself and two friends of her sat there, waited and did nothing. I tried to find a little bit sleep, but I couldn’t. Sometimes I looked around for Jenni, but I couldn’t find her. And I left my cellphone at Wiebkes home, because my battery was empty -_- (I really need a new one).
So, here are pictures, which Wiebke made :3
Fans & Club
More Fans ^^
At 6 PM everyone stood up suddenly without a reason. And we had to stand there for another hour. I was sooo tired and thought, please, open the fucking door that I can walk. If not, my feet are dying off XD
But no, the opened the door exactly at 7 PM. And some of those fucking freaky crazy fangirlies started to push -_-
How annoying is that, men? Gosh…
Anyway, I went to the club and was surprised, how tiny it was. At first I stood next to the mixing desk, but then I saw the merchandise stand and a few fans stood there. So I left my place and bought a poster (and it looks awesome!) and the “A knot of” DVD *_*
After that I went back to my place, sat on the steps and waited. The club was tiny like I wrote it before, but we were like 850/900 people. So, at 8 PM the Intro (“Sabir”) started, the lights went off and the fans started to scream. And I mean, they really screamed ^^
At first Shinya came on stage, after that Kaoru, Toshiya and Die. I don’t know what Shinya wore, I always forget that ^^
But Kaoru wore a dark blue or black jeans, a white T-Shirt (I thought so, but I was wrong, hehe) and a black
Shirt. Toshiya wore trousers with camouflage-paint and a black singlet. And Die wore a black jeans and a white Singlet, too.
And then … Kyo came on stage, wearing a black trackers … and no shirt *_* (and I think, he didn’t wear some underwear *cough* :P)
And he wore a mask. That was the first time I saw him like that. The first song was Obscure and I was so angry, that I couldn’t bang because of my wisdom tooth surgery two days before. But so I had time to watch the performance. And it is unbelievable how Kyo is acting on the stage. He is full of energy, he loves it to sing and to bang … and then I have this image in my mind at the signing session where he was so shy ^^
And “Obscure” was awesome. He made some moves which were kinda creepy, but it fits perfect for this song.
It was unbelievable how happy the guys were. They really enjoyed it, they looked overjoyed and it was wow, just wow. Toshiya freaked out completely, jumped like crazy and motivated the fans over and over again.
Kyo screamed “DEUTSCHLAND” like 43847585643646 times and everyone was screaming, when he did it ;D
And of course Kaoru made his “cool” moves, too XD
Awesome, just awesome. I watched him playing the guitar and was really impressed. Sometimes he pushed his hips forward and he looked like he would fuck his guitar. In this moments I’ve bite my lip and thought: Oh yes, do it harder! XD
Deeper! More! That’s cool, that I had something like sex with him, *bwuahaha* ^o^
I like the fact, that Kyo motivated the fans with screaming “Jump! Jump!” at “The IIIrd Empire”. And yes, I jumped too. I know, I didn’t want it. But after the second song I gave up. You can’t go to a Dir en Grey concert and not banging. That is impossible.
So, here is the set-list :D
Agitated Scream of Maggots
The IIIrd Empire
I really love Kyos Mantras. And in Berlin it was great. He sung and everyone, really everyone, was silent. So Kyos voice filled the whole club and it was so unbelievable intense. Sometimes, when I didn’t bang, dance, jump or scream, I watched the guys and I felt so much pain inside of me. When Kyo screamed I used the chance and screamed my lungs out. I guess, the one girl next to me was really shocked, lol. But to have the chance to let out all of your emotions (at least for me) isn’t so much here. So, I allowed myself to feel. And it was great. Scary sometimes because I felt the urge to do bad things (my friends are knowing what I am talking about, ne?...). But it was awesome.
After the third song I got my personal orgasm. Kaoru took off his shirt … cmjchfhfhvzdkchfhfzt
And yes, he wore a white singlet and damn, you could see his tattoos. I was … really woozy >PPPP
Funny was every time when Kyo had his mantra, all of them turned their backs to the audience and Kaoru pulled his singlet over his ass. But one time I had the chance to see a little bit of his skin … dmdjdhdgdfgfgfg XDDDDD
The concert was awesome, just awesome. When Dir en Grey left the stage, the audience freaked out, screamed the whole time “Ancore, Ancore, Ancore” and clapped their hands. And of course, Dir en Grey came back \^^/
The encore was amazing! I really can’t find words for it. They gave everything. They gave their best and everyone in the venue knew that.
When they had their last song, the audience screamed like crazy and Kyo stood there, smiled over his whole face and started to applaud us. And of course, the fans screamed more XD
It was surprising how long Kyo stood there, gave applaud and let the audience celebrate himself. He left the stage at first.
But Kaoru, Die, Toshiya and Shinya were so long at the stage. Even Kaoru and Toshiya jumped on the little box, raised their arms, screamed and gave us applause. :D
And Toshiya gave us a typical Japanese bow *_*
Too cute. Too cute! After Kaoru and Kyo he totally owns my heart :D
And of course, Die had a ventilator in his front and he looked the whole time like a topmodel. I think for Die the name “Japans next topmodel” is perfect XD
And they threw so many things in the audience. Water bottles, pleks, drumsticks, towels. I think, Berlin was the best concert ever. They love Berlin and when they are coming back I am going to Berlin again, but they gave never a better concert as in Berlin :3
So, when the lights went on, I left the venue. My only thought was to get some air. Outside of the club, I went to a wall, sat there and closed my eyes. I was so exhausted. And so wet because of the sweat ^^
I sat there and waited for Wiebke like 15 minutes. And suddenly I looked straight and saw Jenni running to me, screaming “Ankeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!” I wanted to scream, too but I had no voice. We fell in each others arms for like 10 minutes. I couldn’t believe that I saw Jenni. After cuddling like crazy we talked and I started to cry. She took me into her hug, stroked about my back and I cried like crazy. I was so, so thankful to see her. We made a date for Saturday and then Wiebke and I left the venue and went back home. I swear, when I made the first step in the apartment I was so, so thankful for it. My first way was in the shower, because I was so damn sweaty. And after that I wanted to come online, but Wiebkes connection didn’t work, so I went to bed, deadly tired. And I think, I only needed 10 minutes until I fell asleep XD
Oh, before I forget it. Here is a picture of Wiebkes signed CDs (I have to take a picture of my DVD soon as possible ^^)
And I found some great clips from the concert. Even when you are not a great fan of Diru, give them a chance and watch the clips
This one is extreme cool! It’s a fanmade clip with pictures a fan made *_*
And they are all in good quality :3
And the signing event again :3
So, in the next morning Jelena woke us up with the news that Michael Jackson died. At first I was surprised, but honestly … he was so sick over the last years, it was predictable *shrug*
So, the whole Friday I was at the bed, sometimes at Wiebkes PC, because I was damn groggy and my feet (and my not-existent teeth ^^) hurt like hell. At the evening Jelena made an unbelievable tasty chocolate cake and we had a lot of tea and wonderful talks. I felt so comfortable with both of them and I miss them. I hope, I can visit them again in the future :333
Jelenas cake *_*
On Saturday I slept until 1 PM after 40 hours of no sleep ^^
Wiebke woke me up, so I took a shower and then we left the flat. We drove to the Alexanderplatz in Berlin and damn, it was loud and full of people.
Honestly, I don’t like Berlin :o
It’s ugly, too loud, too many people and you can feel that everyone is so damn rushed and nervous. Horrible.
Anyway, at first Wiebke and I went to Burger King for “Breakfast” ;D
At 4 PM Jenni joined us and we had together a wonderful time \^^/
After Burger King we went to an ice cream parlor and eat some tasty icecream (even when it was fucking expensive ^^).
Short after 5 PM Wiebke and I had to leave Jenni. And yes, I cried when I had to leave her. Wiebke was so lovely and hold the whole time my hand until we arrived at the airport. I knew that she had to go to a birthday party, so I sent her home after cuddling her a long time ^^
Did I mention, that I love her? :P
So, when she went, I sat in a corner and cried in silence. It is always extremely hard for me to leave the people who are so precious for me. And because I had a lot of time, I called Jutta and ranted about Dir en Grey, lol. Poor thing ^^
The flight back home was okay. Just 45 minutes, a little bit trouble when we came to Frankfurt, but I didn’t care.
Because the air conditioner in the plane was so cold, I am having a cold now >_>
But anyway, I am still extremely happy about this wonderful “long” weekend :3
And after writing this entry for nearly three hours, I am finally finished :D
PS: ROFL!!! @ http://community.livejournal.com/dir_en_grey/2538453.html?view=38276309#t38276309
PPS: No friends-cut because I am a crazy bitch XDDD