haebin: (Misc 16)
This morning I found a really great picture of Kaoru in Chile. Damn, did I mention that Kaoru is hot? FREAKING HOT?!?! :D

I love this guy so much. He is the most cool guy ever at this planet :D

Seriously, I want him. Now.

Hottest guy ever )
haebin: (Misc 31)


2009.12.2 RELEASE

The romaji for it is: "Hageshi sato, kono mune no naka de karamitsui ta shakunetsu no yami", which translates to "with violence, within this chest a scorching heat of darkness is coiled around"

This is so, so, so awesome!

(Source is their HP)

Honestly, I can't wait for it. I want to order the single NOW! NOW!

Image and video hosting by TinyPicImage and video hosting by TinyPicImage and video hosting by TinyPic
haebin: (Misc 13)
Isn't it gorgeous? *_*
It's my alltime-Hottie Kaoru :333
This great header was made by [livejournal.com profile] blacklabatory and I LOVE IT :D
haebin: (Misc 20)
Wanted to show you just some pictures, I've made three days before :D

Image and video hosting by TinyPic
My brandnew D'espairsRay poster which I bought at the last concert \^^/
Looks very cool, ne? :)

Image and video hosting by TinyPic
And here: my beloved & precious NEW Dir en Grey poster *_*
Damn, the guys looking so cool! Especially Kaoru *____*
*glompz him* :333

Image and video hosting by TinyPic
Guess what it is XD

Image and video hosting by TinyPic
THAT'S MY SIGNED DVD of Dir en Grey!!!!!!!
Gosh, I love it so much *_*
From left to right: Die, Shinya
In the middle: Kyo
From left to right: Toshiya, Kaoru


I am still so, so happy when I am taking a look of the DVD *_*
I really have a signed DVD. I had handshakes with them and I was so close to them. Awwww \^^/

So, that's all from me ^^

Just a little bit fangirling :D
haebin: (Default)
*points to icon*
Isn't it awesome? XD
I saw the icon and was completely in love with it! XD
For those who doesn't know what it is ... it's Toshiya XDDD
And I really adore his style which he had on the tour in Europe :D
Especially his socks XDDD

Free Image Hosting at www.ImageShack.us

This icon made my day \^^/
haebin: (Misc 19)
Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww! I finished some minutes ago watching the "A Knot"-DVD of Dir en Grey, which I bought in Berlin at their concert. Epic! Just epic! God, did I ever mention how much I love Dir en Grey? No? I do. I started listening them at the same time with Gackt. And now? You see, not listening Gackt anymore, but Dir en Grey XDDD

And of course I made screenshots XDDD
The most of them weren't good enough for the upload, but some of them are not bad. That means, I can fangirling about Kaoru and Kyos halfnaked body with his amazing tattoos :D

Yeah, I know, I am the only one who is having fan over fangirling of Diru ... and maybe Wiebke (aka [livejournal.com profile] rabenkraehe), but damn, I love the guys and they deserve of fangirling-drooling-epic-entry XD

Especially Kaoru deserves it *_*
My one and only sexgod :3

A lot of Kaoru, his hair, his ass, Tattoos, Boots and sexy japanese rockstars :P )
haebin: (Misc 3)
Look :D

Okay, Toshiya! Look right in the cam! That's only for you XDDD

PS: Kaoru is ♥♥♥♥♥


Jul. 4th, 2009 07:48 pm
haebin: (Misc 30)
I found a just adorable picture of Shinya =D
It was made secretly by Toshiya at Metaltown in Sweden. Yes, Toshiya is a meanie, making a picture of Shinya, when the guy is so drunk XP

Image and video hosting by TinyPic

According to Toshiyas blog-entry Shinya drunk “Jägermeister” XD
I laughed so much when I saw the picture for the first time, because it reminds me on my black-out-parties XD
Damn, I miss that. When I’ve met Jenni we talked about our one night we had in the Thai-Bar … where we both endet so fucking drunk :P
And I swear, when I am going back to Berlin, I’ll have a drinking-party with Wiebke! Too sad that Jutta is a good girl and doesn’t drink much alcohol :P

When I browsed through Deviantart I found amazing photos of Dir en Grey, which a fan made in their concerts. I think, she worked with Photoshop on the pictures, but the results are amazing! Take a look!

Very impressing )
Not bad, ne? ;)

Yesterday evening my “graphic-skills” (*cough*) came back and I made 100 icons and two wallpapers. Mostly coloring, but I realized that I like simple icons :3

Maybe I’ll try to make more this evening. Let’s see. And at 10 pm, Jutta and I want to watch “The Grudge” … I guess, I will freak out because one time I tried to watch the movie and stopped it after 5 minutes because I was so scared :P
But I really want to know what is the movie about :P

Take care and have a nice evening :3
Lots of Love, Anke

PS: Vergesst nicht meinen Bücher-Verkaufs-Entry morgen XP *werbemodus* :3

Image and video hosting by TinyPic


Jun. 29th, 2009 12:22 pm
haebin: (Misc 6)
I guess, I am really the only here who is so enthusiastic about new pictures of Dir en Grey like me :D
But I can't resist, I have to upload them :3
Found some awesome pictures from "Metaldown" in Sweden :3
And yes, I have to say, Kyo is a really handsome man ♥~

Shut the fuck up :P )
haebin: (Misc 7)
So, I thought, I could write down, what I did in Berlin … if someone is interested :P
I really had an awesome time there and I want to write everything down, what I can remember, because in a year I want to read the entry again and smile about the fact, how happy I was :3

You know, the “day” begun exactly at Wednesday at 7 AM *sigh*
I was so excited and nervous, that I couldn’t sleep the night before. So, I was awake the whole time until 4 AM. My parents and my brother were of course extremely tired, but they brought me to the airport. I didn’t expect that they would come with me to the check-in and I sent them home, because I saw how tired they were. So, we cuddled a lot, I waved when they drove back and then I went to the airport. I really love the Airport in Frankfurt, it is awesome, the atmosphere is great, but it is annoying when you have to walk 1 kilometre until you’ve reached your check-in counter. So, after walking for good 8 minutes I’ve found my check-in counter. And it was closed o.O
Of course I started to get afraid and felt. In such situations, I tend to freak out completely =/
Anyway, there were people in a row and I thought: Okay, I’ll stand there, too. Maybe I am right here…
And I was. I had a really nice guy who checked me in and then I had a whole hour to wait. I walked through the terminal, listened Dir en Grey of course and made some pictures. I really want to upload them, but right now my batteries are empty and I have problems with my cable =/
I hope so much, I can upload the pictures tomorrow *prays for it*

Anyway, after sitting around and observing the people, I could go to my Gate \^^/
And I was the first one there. So, I sat in the front of a huge window, send Jutta some messages with my cell phone because I was bored (and she was still sleeping *giggles*) and watched the airplanes. With the time more people came … and 90 % of them were business men. I felt a little bit awkward :P
Seemed, like I would be the only normal person there XD

So, short after 7 AM we could go in the airplane and I had a seat on the window \^^/
But unfortunately we had to wait to long to our start =/
But when the plane left the ground, I felt so free. I think, that is one of the most precious feelings I have. It is so hard to describe it, but every time when I am in a plane and this is leaving the ground I can feel what a huge peace is filling my heart. Like I would leave everything behind me. Even myself ^^

So, the flight was okay. Just 50 minutes and that is really short for me, because normally I have flights between 12 and 15 hours ;D
But it was okay. And the captain was nice :D
So, we arrived at 08:10 AM (not 07.55 AM) Berlin. And when the plane landed, I started to become really nervous about seeing Wiebke. I thought the whole time: Oh please, I hope she will like me. And will not be shocked when she sees seeing me.
So, I fetched my travelling bag and left the departure lounge. And my heart stopped. Wiebke wasn’t there … I swear, I was close to freak out. I grabbed my cellphone, wanted to give her a call and realized, that I didn’t saved her number on my cellphone … ARGH U_U
So, I called my mum in the morning, forced her to look to my firebird and searching for Wiebkes phone number. I was really totally agitated and had horrible visions of me being alone in Berlin.
So, my mum found the cell phone (what was a wonder, because her pc-skills are like zero), I finished the call, turned myself around and was like … Wiebke? O_o
She stood next to me and was searching for me, lol. Both of us cuddled us first and I was so glad to see her. And she is adorable. I really love her.
She said then: Stop, wait.
She went some steps back, put a Kaoru-Flag out of her bag and waved with it. So, I got my Kaoru-Fläggsche :D
Then we left the Airport and drove to her home à female student apartment-sharing community. I thought the way to the flat was sooooooo long. ^^
But when we arrived finally her home and went in, I felt comfortable in the first second. I really loved it there. And then I’ve met Jelena, Wiebkes friend and roommate. And she is adorable, too. I think, with Wiebke and Jelena it was love at the first sight :P

So, I’ve changed my clothes and forced Wiebke to drive with me to the “Saturn”, where the signing session were. I knew, she wanted to see Dir en Grey, but she was so NOT in the mood for the fangirlies XD
I really hoped so much that I would have the chance to see Dir en Grey and to get an autograph. But to be honest, I didn’t believe it. I thought the whole time: Forget it, Anke, you are never lucky when it is about such things.
I excepted that I would stand in the row, it would be 4 PM and Dir en Grey would leave the place for the signing session and I would be one of the losers, who got no autograph ^^

So, we drove to the Saturn. And damn, the way there was so damn long. I know one thing, Berlin is way too big for me. You have to walk a lot, even when you are using a bus, a train or something like that. And I am really, really lazy ^^
For someone like me, who is locked up the most of the time in her room, it was a huge journey :P

So, we crossed the “Gedächtniskirche” on the way to the Saturn, but … I didn’t like it. You know, I love churches and I love architecture, but this one was ugly. At least in my eyes ^^

That’s not really my taste ^^

So, when we came into near of the Saturn we discovered the first fans ^^
Of course all in black, typical mix between emo and visu. And I thought to myself: Anke, you are way too old for that XD

So, we went in the Saturn and had no Idea, what we had to do, lol. So I made Wiebke the suggestion to search for the CD-section and I was right :D
There was a stage o_O
And behind of that a huge screen, where they showed “The rose trims again” DVD … of course without a tone, rofl.
Maybe they did it because of the other customers :P

Here are some pictures :)

The staff from the Saturn sharing out water bottles for the fans o_O
I was really surprised. It was a great gesture for the people who’ve waited more than 3 hours … like Wiebke and me :P (we were there at 11.30 AM)

Some fans. And do you see the girls in the strange yellow plushie-thingie? They were a Pikachu and a yellow bunny. OMFG! At a Dir en Grey signing session? Are they serious? That was so fucking ridiculous, seriously. And shameful.
I mean … Dir en Grey, come on… I am 100% sure, that they guys backbite about the girls after seeing them, because … that is not okay for Dir en Grey. It’s okay for An Café and “maybe” for Miyavi, but NOT for Dir en Grey ^^

Poster :333

The stage ^^
The funniest thing was that some “fans” started to scream when the stuff put the five chairs on the stage o_O
Freaks, I swear. All of them are fucking freaks ^^

The stage again … and even when I saw five chairs and thought the whole time, that Kyo wouldn’t come on stage ^^

So, Wiebke and I’ve waited for 3 ½ hours. And yes, it was long ^^
Of course the fans started to stand up (why? oO) an hour before >_>
So, we had to wait *sigh*
And when I looked above my shoulder I saw a lot of fans o_O
I was so happy to stand near the entrance. I think, it was exactly 3 PM and the girls started to scream -__- (the next girl who will start to scream in my near at the next Diru-event, will get a slap from me, I swear). Because I am so damn tiny, I stood on my toes and saw at first Shinya and then Toshiya. And I was like: OMFG, squeeeeeeeeeeeee \^^/
They are real!!! … but only in my thoughts :D
I said the whole time to Wiebke: Oh my god, look at Totchi, he looks so cool, so cool! :D
And then I saw a piece of Kaorus hair and it was like heaven. He was really there.
I swear, my heart jumped like crazy and I smiled over my whole face. With every step closer to them I couldn’t believe it more, lol.
It was so unreal that Dir en Grey were really there. So, when I got through this little entrance, we stood in a row and I had the perfect view on the stage. I know, I repeat myself over and over again, but I couldn’t believe it. They looked so cool. And so normal at the same time. I saw some fans crying and their hands shook like crazy, but I was surprisingly very “normal”. The only thing was that I smiled like crazy ^^
And I thought, when they are signing my DVD, I’ll try to get a handshake. I mean, they couldn’t say more than “no”, right?

So, with every step I came closer to the table, where the guys sat. And then I stood in front of die. I said “hi” and gave him my dvd. He signed it and I know exactly that I looked at his right hand and his tattoo. And I thought: Wow, that looks really good on him *laughs*
He gave me the dvd back, I sat thank you, smiled and he gave me a little, shy smile. And then I did it. I reached him my hand and like in slow motion, he took his pen in his other hand and returned my handshake. God, I was so happy. I said “thank you” and smiled and he said “thank you”, too :D

And then … Kyo. My first thought was, when I looked in his face, omfg, he is a babyface O_O
Seriously, he is looking like 23 o.O
I said “hi” to him and he nodded to greeting. And … I know, it sounds strange, but that was my impression. He looked at me very long. Like he would look behind my mask. It was like checking me what kind of person I am. And I respond his very intense view at me. I smiled and when he signed my dvd, I looked at his hand and his tattoos. I took the dvd on me and said “thank you”, gave him my hand and he took it. And it was … his handshake was so gentle. He is such a wonderful person, even when he said no word (or he did and I didn’t hear it, because my whole world was only Dir en Grey & myself, lol). And I was really happy that he wore no sunglasses, because … you could really see in his eyes and I am deeply appreciate this ♥~

So, I went a step forward and stood in front of Kaoru. At first I looked in his face and even when he wore sunglasses, I could see how he looked at me. I smiled (okay, why I am writing this down? Because I smiled the whole time ^^), said “hi” and gave him my dvd. And I looked down on his tattooed arms. Damn, that looks good. And yes, he is hot. He has such an amazing aura, that is absolutely amazing. I was so glad when he gave me his hand and smiled at him. He nooded like “There you are, Hun” XD

The next one was Toshiya and he was really, really inviting. His gaze was interested and he checked the fans like Kyo. But he smiled, too and was really adorable. When he gave me his hand and I said “thank you”, he answered with “Dankeschön” XDDD
And Shinya is cute. His voice is so gentle and he was so nice and adorable. When I left the table, I turned around to Wiebke and smiled at her like crazy.

I stood for a little while in the near of the table and tried to make some pictures of Dir en Grey. I think, two or three worked, but when I had the perfect sight on the guys, my batteries were empty. I really was so close to scream. But anyway, I got autographs of Dir en Grey :D

Here two pictures which Wiebke made with her cell phone :D



And here are some clips, I’ve found at youtube :333

One of the funniest things at the signing session was the fact, that one girl brought some old visual kei-pictures for signing. But Kaoru and Kyo scratched their faces out XDDD

So, when Wiebke got her autographs, we left the place and went to an ice cream parlour for something to drink. We were both bouncy and happy and Wiebke giggled the whole time about my face expression :P

So, after an hour of relaxing we decided to leave the place to go to the venue. And I guess, we changed the bus/train 3 times until we’ve reached the venue. And I was deadly tired (had 30 hours of no sleep) and my feet hurt like hell. The crowd was quite normal at the beginning and Wiebke, myself and two friends of her sat there, waited and did nothing. I tried to find a little bit sleep, but I couldn’t. Sometimes I looked around for Jenni, but I couldn’t find her. And I left my cellphone at Wiebkes home, because my battery was empty -_- (I really need a new one).

So, here are pictures, which Wiebke made :3

Fans & Club

More Fans ^^

At 6 PM everyone stood up suddenly without a reason. And we had to stand there for another hour. I was sooo tired and thought, please, open the fucking door that I can walk. If not, my feet are dying off XD
But no, the opened the door exactly at 7 PM. And some of those fucking freaky crazy fangirlies started to push -_-
How annoying is that, men? Gosh…

Anyway, I went to the club and was surprised, how tiny it was. At first I stood next to the mixing desk, but then I saw the merchandise stand and a few fans stood there. So I left my place and bought a poster (and it looks awesome!) and the “A knot of” DVD *_*
After that I went back to my place, sat on the steps and waited. The club was tiny like I wrote it before, but we were like 850/900 people. So, at 8 PM the Intro (“Sabir”) started, the lights went off and the fans started to scream. And I mean, they really screamed ^^
At first Shinya came on stage, after that Kaoru, Toshiya and Die. I don’t know what Shinya wore, I always forget that ^^
But Kaoru wore a dark blue or black jeans, a white T-Shirt (I thought so, but I was wrong, hehe) and a black
Shirt. Toshiya wore trousers with camouflage-paint and a black singlet. And Die wore a black jeans and a white Singlet, too.
And then … Kyo came on stage, wearing a black trackers … and no shirt *_* (and I think, he didn’t wear some underwear *cough* :P)
And he wore a mask. That was the first time I saw him like that. The first song was Obscure and I was so angry, that I couldn’t bang because of my wisdom tooth surgery two days before. But so I had time to watch the performance. And it is unbelievable how Kyo is acting on the stage. He is full of energy, he loves it to sing and to bang … and then I have this image in my mind at the signing session where he was so shy ^^
And “Obscure” was awesome. He made some moves which were kinda creepy, but it fits perfect for this song.

It was unbelievable how happy the guys were. They really enjoyed it, they looked overjoyed and it was wow, just wow. Toshiya freaked out completely, jumped like crazy and motivated the fans over and over again.
Kyo screamed “DEUTSCHLAND” like 43847585643646 times and everyone was screaming, when he did it ;D
And of course Kaoru made his “cool” moves, too XD
Awesome, just awesome. I watched him playing the guitar and was really impressed. Sometimes he pushed his hips forward and he looked like he would fuck his guitar. In this moments I’ve bite my lip and thought: Oh yes, do it harder! XD
Deeper! More! That’s cool, that I had something like sex with him, *bwuahaha* ^o^

I like the fact, that Kyo motivated the fans with screaming “Jump! Jump!” at “The IIIrd Empire”. And yes, I jumped too. I know, I didn’t want it. But after the second song I gave up. You can’t go to a Dir en Grey concert and not banging. That is impossible.

So, here is the set-list :D

Sa Bir
Red Soil
Dozing Green


Glass Skin



Agitated Scream of Maggots
Merciless Cult
The IIIrd Empire


The Final
Clever Sleazoid

I really love Kyos Mantras. And in Berlin it was great. He sung and everyone, really everyone, was silent. So Kyos voice filled the whole club and it was so unbelievable intense. Sometimes, when I didn’t bang, dance, jump or scream, I watched the guys and I felt so much pain inside of me. When Kyo screamed I used the chance and screamed my lungs out. I guess, the one girl next to me was really shocked, lol. But to have the chance to let out all of your emotions (at least for me) isn’t so much here. So, I allowed myself to feel. And it was great. Scary sometimes because I felt the urge to do bad things (my friends are knowing what I am talking about, ne?...). But it was awesome.

After the third song I got my personal orgasm. Kaoru took off his shirt … cmjchfhfhvzdkchfhfzt
And yes, he wore a white singlet and damn, you could see his tattoos. I was … really woozy >PPPP

Funny was every time when Kyo had his mantra, all of them turned their backs to the audience and Kaoru pulled his singlet over his ass. But one time I had the chance to see a little bit of his skin … dmdjdhdgdfgfgfg XDDDDD

The concert was awesome, just awesome. When Dir en Grey left the stage, the audience freaked out, screamed the whole time “Ancore, Ancore, Ancore” and clapped their hands. And of course, Dir en Grey came back \^^/
The encore was amazing! I really can’t find words for it. They gave everything. They gave their best and everyone in the venue knew that.
When they had their last song, the audience screamed like crazy and Kyo stood there, smiled over his whole face and started to applaud us. And of course, the fans screamed more XD
It was surprising how long Kyo stood there, gave applaud and let the audience celebrate himself. He left the stage at first.
But Kaoru, Die, Toshiya and Shinya were so long at the stage. Even Kaoru and Toshiya jumped on the little box, raised their arms, screamed and gave us applause. :D
And Toshiya gave us a typical Japanese bow *_*
Too cute. Too cute! After Kaoru and Kyo he totally owns my heart :D
And of course, Die had a ventilator in his front and he looked the whole time like a topmodel. I think for Die the name “Japans next topmodel” is perfect XD

And they threw so many things in the audience. Water bottles, pleks, drumsticks, towels. I think, Berlin was the best concert ever. They love Berlin and when they are coming back I am going to Berlin again, but they gave never a better concert as in Berlin :3

So, when the lights went on, I left the venue. My only thought was to get some air. Outside of the club, I went to a wall, sat there and closed my eyes. I was so exhausted. And so wet because of the sweat ^^
I sat there and waited for Wiebke like 15 minutes. And suddenly I looked straight and saw Jenni running to me, screaming “Ankeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!” I wanted to scream, too but I had no voice. We fell in each others arms for like 10 minutes. I couldn’t believe that I saw Jenni. After cuddling like crazy we talked and I started to cry. She took me into her hug, stroked about my back and I cried like crazy. I was so, so thankful to see her. We made a date for Saturday and then Wiebke and I left the venue and went back home. I swear, when I made the first step in the apartment I was so, so thankful for it. My first way was in the shower, because I was so damn sweaty. And after that I wanted to come online, but Wiebkes connection didn’t work, so I went to bed, deadly tired. And I think, I only needed 10 minutes until I fell asleep XD

Oh, before I forget it. Here is a picture of Wiebkes signed CDs (I have to take a picture of my DVD soon as possible ^^)


And I found some great clips from the concert. Even when you are not a great fan of Diru, give them a chance and watch the clips

This one is extreme cool! It’s a fanmade clip with pictures a fan made *_*
And they are all in good quality :3

And the signing event again :3

So, in the next morning Jelena woke us up with the news that Michael Jackson died. At first I was surprised, but honestly … he was so sick over the last years, it was predictable *shrug*

So, the whole Friday I was at the bed, sometimes at Wiebkes PC, because I was damn groggy and my feet (and my not-existent teeth ^^) hurt like hell. At the evening Jelena made an unbelievable tasty chocolate cake and we had a lot of tea and wonderful talks. I felt so comfortable with both of them and I miss them. I hope, I can visit them again in the future :333

Jelenas cake *_*

On Saturday I slept until 1 PM after 40 hours of no sleep ^^
Wiebke woke me up, so I took a shower and then we left the flat. We drove to the Alexanderplatz in Berlin and damn, it was loud and full of people.
Honestly, I don’t like Berlin :o
It’s ugly, too loud, too many people and you can feel that everyone is so damn rushed and nervous. Horrible.
Anyway, at first Wiebke and I went to Burger King for “Breakfast” ;D
At 4 PM Jenni joined us and we had together a wonderful time \^^/
After Burger King we went to an ice cream parlor and eat some tasty icecream (even when it was fucking expensive ^^).
Short after 5 PM Wiebke and I had to leave Jenni. And yes, I cried when I had to leave her. Wiebke was so lovely and hold the whole time my hand until we arrived at the airport. I knew that she had to go to a birthday party, so I sent her home after cuddling her a long time ^^
Did I mention, that I love her? :P
So, when she went, I sat in a corner and cried in silence. It is always extremely hard for me to leave the people who are so precious for me. And because I had a lot of time, I called Jutta and ranted about Dir en Grey, lol. Poor thing ^^

The flight back home was okay. Just 45 minutes, a little bit trouble when we came to Frankfurt, but I didn’t care.
Because the air conditioner in the plane was so cold, I am having a cold now >_>

But anyway, I am still extremely happy about this wonderful “long” weekend :3

And after writing this entry for nearly three hours, I am finally finished :D


PS: ROFL!!! @ http://community.livejournal.com/dir_en_grey/2538453.html?view=38276309#t38276309
PPS: No friends-cut because I am a crazy bitch XDDD

Tadaima :)

Jun. 28th, 2009 12:09 am
haebin: (Misc 9)
So, I am back at home.
Left Berlin today. I am sad, because I had such a wonderful time there together with Wiebke, Jelena and Jenni! It was awesome. And I miss our tee-hour and the unbelievable tasty chocolate cake Jelena made *_*
And of course I am missing Dir en Grey. I could go to another concert of them, seriously. I am still flashed and unbelievable happy about my autographs :3
Bought the A Knot-DVD and a poster *_*
I am still having horrible pains from my wisdom tooth surgery at tuesday. I know, I shouldn't headbanging at the concert, but I couldn't resist :D

So, I wanted to say:
Thank you!!!
Wiebke and Jelena, I felt so unbelievable good and safe with you both together. I laughed and enjoyed our commong time and I really adore you! And I can't wait to come back. Maybe for a week? XD
Thank you so much for taking care of me! And cuddling me and drying my tears. You both are such unbelievable precious friends! (Yup, even when I know Jelena since two days! :D)

And Jenni? I love you. I still love you and to see you, to feel your hug and listen to you was one of the best things ever.
I can't find words for describing how unbelievable happy I was when I saw you running to me.

And of course ... thanks @ Dir en Grey!
For the absolute amazing concert. For the warm welcome. The shyly smiles and the inviting handshakes! That was one of the best things in my life :3
Can't wait until you're coming back to Germany, especially Berlin :D

Image and video hosting by TinyPic
haebin: (Misc 5)
Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god, oh my god, oh my god, oh my god, oh my god, oh my god, oh my god, oh my god, oh my god, oh my god, oh my god, oh my god, oh my god, oh my god, oh my god!!!

I got it, I got it. I really got an autograph of DIR EN GREY!!!!!!!
I am so, so, so unbelievable happy!
I can't believe it, seriously. I am still thinking, that was a dream. But I am looking on my dvd, seeing the names and I know, it is true.

It is awesome, so, so awesome and I am still so unbelievable flashed :D

So, I start with the flight. It was okay. Just weird, that the flight was only 50 minutes. Too short for me :D
And meeting Wiebke at the Airport was awesome! She said welcome with a Kaoru-Fläggsche :D
At first we drove to Wiebkes home, after that we drove to "Saturn". And of course we saw the first fans there. So, we arrived at 11.30 AM, the signing session was at 3 PM. And yes, we waited so, so fucking long and our feet hurted like hell. But it was so damn worthy. At the beginning there were like 60 or 70 fans. We stood on the right side and the best thing was, the securities made a "entrance" at the right side. So, that meant we were under the first 50 persons who got an autograph XDDDDDD

So, Dir en Grey came on the stage at 3 PM. At first Shinya, Toshiya and I saw a piece of Kaorus hair, lol.
God, I couldn't believe it. At first, when I stood between all those people, I only saw Toshiya the whole time and a little bit of Shinya. And damn, Toshiya is so, so cute. After Kaoru and Kyo he totally owns my heart. He is just adorable.

Anyway, like I said it before we were under the first 50 people and when I went through the little "entrance", I stood there and was like: I can't believe it. And the best thing was, Kyo was there, too!!! Kyo! *________*
They were so cool. Everyone of them (except Kyo) wore sunglasses. Dai wore a leather jacket, Kyo a Jeans Jacket, Kaoru a black shirt (and you could see his tattoos *____*), Toshiya a white shirt and Shinya something in beige or brown, don't know it exactly.
So, at first I stood in front of Die. I gave him my dvd and he signed it. He looked so tired but cool at the same time.
It was like this:
Anke: Hi *smiles shy*
Die: Hi *nood**smiles too*
Die: *signing the dvd*
Anke: Thank you ^______________________^
Die: Thank you!
And then I gave him my hand... and he took it (Sorry for using such a bad english, but I am fucking tired ^^)
Oh my god, his handshake was so gently *_*
Then I stood in front of Kyo, said "hi" and smiled again. He looked at me, nooded and I had the feeling, like he looked very long on me, like thinking what kind of fan I was XDDDD
I think, he had a good feeling with me XDDDD
And I had a handshake with Kyo too!!! OMFG! He is so shy and so adorable. And he is a babyface. Seriously. When you are standing in front of him, you are having the feeling he is 23 XDDD
When I said "thank you" too him (und mich leicht verneigt habe ^^), he nooded again and smiled shy. *_*
And then ... then ... heartattack ... I stood in front of Kaoru. OMFG (my heart is beating like crazy right now). He signed my dvd too and he semmed very interested. Even when he wore sunglasses I could feel how he looked at me. And I never felt so comfortable in the front of an artist. Maybe because they are so normal and not arrogant or something like that. I really smiled the whole day and I reached my hand. He smiled and gave me a handshake. And I think, my whole face was grinning, lol.
I said thank you and he nooded agaim with this mix of a cool face and a shy smile. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH
wnfhfgffnchdfgrrttrcncjdrftt *_*

And then ... Totchi. I really love him. He was so inviting and cute and smiling. Awesome, just awesome. His handshake was so gentle and when I said "thank you", he said "Dankeschön" XDDDD
And Shinya was adorable too. He was so, so shy and his voice was so gentle. That was really one of the best moments I've ever had in my life.

So, I stood 2 meters or something like that on their side and made 2 or 3 pictures and then ... my batteries were empty. ARGH!
I could only make pictures of Dirus backs ... but anyway, I will love those pics :D
So, I've waited for Wiebke and then we left 'Saturn', went to a little cafe and drank something. After that we went to the venue and waited there.
I'll write a really review, when I am back at home. But I can say that was definite the best concert ever I've seen of Dir en Grey. They were amazing. I thought, Saarbrücken were amazing, but I was wrong. Saarbrücken was like 10%, Berlin was 100%. They had a lot of fun, Kyo screamed the whole time "DEUTSCHLAND!!!!!!" and they rocked like hell.
And yes, God heard my prayers, because Kaoru wore a shirt, where you could see his tattoos. And yes, it was like fucking me XDDDD
I swear, he is the hottest guy on earth. And he knows that. He knows, how fucking sexy he is. And he is not playing his guitar. He is FUCKING his guitar. That was the best sex I've ever had in my whole life, yesterday, rofl XDDD

And yes, I did it. I banged, I jumped, I danced.
My neck is hurting like hell, my feet are hurting, my back is hurting and the wound of my wisdom tooth surgery is hurting like hell. I am living by painkillers, but fuck, IT WAS SO WORTHY!!!

I am still so unbelievable flashed and happy!

And yes, I bought a poster and a DVD. And I am broken, lol XDDD

So, now I am going to bed again, because between wednesday and yesterday evening I had for 40 hours no sleep. I am fucking tired. But I am happy :D
Extremely happy :D

PS: Vanü, ich konnte dir leider kein Autogramm mitbringen, weil die halt DVDs, Singles, Alben, Photobücher unterschrieben hatten, und ich hatte nur eine DVD dabei. Tut mir echt leid :(
Aber als ich vor Die stand, hab ich ganz dolle an dich gedacht :3

PPS: KAORU IS SEX (=der Mann hat Eier aus Stahl und er weiß das) XDDDDDDD
haebin: (Misc 7)
Image and video hosting by TinyPic

Yes, yes, yes! I am ready for Berlin, Wiebke and Dir en Grey! Yokatta! I am so, so happy. And nervous. And bouncy. And … waaaaaah *jumps around*
I can’t believe it. Finally I’ll see Wiebke! And we’ll go together (!) to a Dir en Grey concert, watching our sex god Kaoru >P (and we talked about maybe 4 years about seeing such an event together ;D)
So, I’ve dyed my hair today (dark black again ^^), packed my bag, put money on my cell phone and did everything I need for tomorrow.
I’ll wake up at 3 AM (when I can find sleep this night ^^) and my family is bringing me at 4 AM to the airport, because the time of departure is at 6.50 AM. I’ll fly for an hour, than I’ll meet my dearie Wüwü, we are driving to her home, after that to “Saturn” for the signing session (and I really hope, I can get an autograph of Kaoru [I’ll sell my soul for it!]) and then we’ll go to the venue. And I am sure, we’ll have an awesome concert. Even I can’t bang because of the tooth surgery yesterday.
It hurts a little bit, but the surgery wasn’t that bad. But the injection before was *shivers*
Oh yes, my mum came home yesterday \^^/
She is still having pains, but she feels a lot better and I am very, very thankful for it :3

Nya, that’s all from me today. I am off for DIR EN GREY! BERLIN! AND WIEBKE!!! :D

See you ^^/
*cuddles everyone*

Dear Kaoru

Jun. 22nd, 2009 10:33 am
haebin: (Misc 16)
Image and video hosting by TinyPic

Dear Kaoru,

please wear THIS at the Berlin concert.
I really need an eye-orgasm.


haebin: (Misc 22)

He is a really strange and annoying guy. And the question with the panda bear wasn't really funny. But it was funny how Kaoru and Die reacted :D
Especially when they called so desperately for Nora :D

And wtf, Kaoru answered only one question? O_O
He's kinda emo-ish, I think :rolleyes: :P

Can't wait to see them. Only 6 days until Berlin ♥♥♥♥♥
haebin: (Misc 7)
Okay, I’ll start in the morning :P
Random blabla at first *laughs*
I woke up at 9 AM and yes, I was nervous and totally bouncy at the same time. I mean, it was THE DAY, right? So, my only thoughts were about Dir en Grey. At 11 AM Jutta came to my home and I was so, so unbelievable happy to see her again :D
And thankful, that she joined me for the concert, because Dir en Grey is so NOT her type of music :P
But she survived it, don’t worry ^^
We had a nice lunch together with my family and Mirko. And Kiki of course. It was the first time that Jutta saw Kiki and yes, she fell totally in love with her. Like everyone :D

So, we decided to leave my home at 4.30 PM and when I sat in the car, I started to become extremely nervous. I was so nervous, that my hands started to shake. The drive to Saarbrücken was okay, just one hour, what is pretty few because normally we have to drive 2 hours (or more) to go to concerts of other Jrock-Bands.
Anyway, we arrived at the hall at 6 PM and I was surprised to see so few fans o_O
I mean, when I remember me on the first concert in Cologne, three years ago, the line of the people was soooooo long o_O
And there? It looks like only 300 people were waiting. What was kinda few ôO
So, we didn’t stand far away from the entry :P
And we didn’t have to wait long. The most of the fans were typical jrockers. Black clothes and so on. And we saw two gothic Lolitas. I thought: WHAT THE FUCK? Gothic Lolitas? Sorry, but not at a concert of Dir en Grey. And after that Jutta and I noticed three Japanese fans. One of them looked totally normal. But the other two looked like girls from Gackts clip “Koikuma Heaven” o_O
Totally overdressed, a really “impressive” (*rolleyes*) make-up and their clothes were … short. Damn short. I was really irritated to see girls like that.

Anyway, we had the luck to go in the club without huge problems (and the fans were kinda okay, not really huge pushing or screaming or something like that).

The club was really cool. It was not like the Live Music Hall, because the Live Music Hall is a very long hall. The “garage” is wider and everyone was able to see the stage very good.

So, we were one of the firsts in the hall, but the first four rows were already crowded. So, Jutta and I decided to climb on a box and we had a really fantastic view on the stage *_*
And I sat totally in the sight of Kaoru XDDDD

So, the concert started at 8 PM with “Sabir” … I was like “eh? What is going on?”, because on the concert ticket some special guest were announced o_O
But there was no other band ^^
Only Dir en Grey, but damn, that was enough for me :D

So, at first Shinya came on the stage, after him Die, Toshiya, Kaoru (\*_*/) and finally Kyo. Whoa, just wow.

Okay, to the outfits. Shinya wore a grey jeans and a white shirt, Die a Jeans and a black shirt, his hair was black and long ^^
Toshiya wore a black jeans (I think), a white singlet and a neck scarf (impressing, because it was fucking hot in the hall). And Kaoru wore a jeans and a black T-Shirt. That is enough for me to say, he is the most sexiest man for me on earth :P
Kyo wore a black jeans, too and a white T-Shirt. And I really love his hair, because now it has the length until his shoulder. It looks really good on him.

So, after Sabir they started with Vinushka, I think. And … whoa, I banged my head off, seriously. Jutta said, 80% of the concert I banged, lol. So … I think, I didn’t see a lot, lol.
The third song was Obscure. WHAT THE FUCK? Obscure, one of my favourite songs *_*
And Kyos voice is wow, just wow. When he is singing the really high tones, it is like he is able to pierce through your body and your soul. I felt so … so … totally caught by his voice. It is amazing, how he can use his voice. From the high tones too growling his soul out. Amazing. Some of the songs were so intense, that I really felt pain (yeah, I know it sounds strange, but I am a psychotic Borderliner, so I can’t handle emotions really well). I never, never met a singer in my whole life who is able to touch me so deeply. To touch my inner self, the “myself” I hide from everyone. No one. Except Kyo. One time he had a … echo on his microphone and you had the feeling, that his voice was embracing you. I closed my eyes and felt his voice and I noticed, that my eyes were full of tears. I really felt so many emotions, that I grabbed Jutta’s hand, to find some emotional secureness.
The other time he put his T-Shirt over his face and it remembered me on a living dead. It was so intense and when he hit his heart I thought: Yeah, I know this kind of pain.
I think, maybe a lot of people don’t feel like that, but for me Kyo is … he is sharing the same pain like me. When I listen to his songs, read his lyrics, I totally know what he is singing about. I know it. And maybe that is the reason, that Kyo is touching me so deeply.

So, like I said before, I didn’t saw a lot of the performance. The most of the time I closed my eyes, listened the music and banged like crazy (now I am feeling like 100, because I can’t move my neck anymore ._.). And I don’t remember at all of the songs, but Kyo sung a lot of Uroboros and of “The Marrow of a Bone”.
Some songs, I remember were:
Sabir, Vinushka, Obscure, Repetion of Hatred, Glass Skin, Agitated Scream of Maggots, Clever Sleazoid, Dozing Green, Disabled Complexes and … I don’t remember on the other ones. I try to find the setlist for the concert tomorrow :D

Dir en Grey made a 10 minute break, after that they came back for three songs. And they rocked like hell. Especially Kaoru warmed up a bit. The first part of the concert he stood the most of the time in the shadow ^^
Really bouncy was Toshiya, he encouraged the audience a lot. A really funny thing was Die, lol.
He had a ventilator in front of his, so his hair was constantly moving, lol.
He looked like a topmodel :D
I was so sad, that I didn’t have my digi cam with me, because I had an awesome view on the stage and the guys.
And when Kaoru was a little bit bold, he came to the front, stood on a box and banged :D
And yes, yes, yes! THAT WAS SO FUCKING HOT! And we had eye contact XDDDDD
Kaoru noticed me :D
Probably he thought: Oh my fucking god, what is she doing there? She looks totally crazy

But he is awesome. At the end of the concert, something really rare happened. Kyo applauded to the audience and then … he laughed! OMFG! Kyo laughed! I was so happy to see him like that. And the best thing was that he seemed so happy and proud. I really, really love the thought that their first one-man-concert in Germany were so great for them :D
Everyone (except Shinya) applauded to us and … and wow, just wow. I was so overwhelmed with my feelings (and still am ^^). When the lights went on, I laid half dead at the box and tried to realize what happened to me. But I couldn’t. And I still try to realize all the emotions they broke out yesterday evening. I really can’t find the words to describe what I felt. Maybe Jutta can try to explain, how I looked and how my impression was ^^ *laughs*

After finishing the concert, I bought the “The Rose Trims Again”-Tour-DVD and a T-Shirt.

I am so excited about Berlin. Unfortunately, I can’t bang there because two days before I have this huge tooth surgery ;_;
And after banging for nearly two hours yesterday I am having toothaches again =/
That means … nope, not banging at Berlin ;_;
But hey, maybe God has a good day and I have the luck to get an autograph and maybe a picture with Kaoru together :>
That would be the best birthday present for me ever :D

So, I know I had an awesome time. I banged my head off, I screamed (of course only between the song breaks) and I sung like crazy. This was the best concert in my life. And I think, no other artist can top this :>

So, that’s all from me. Hope, you enjoyed it :D

haebin: (Misc 1)
What can I say?
This Dir en Grey concert was the best concert I've seen in my whole life, seriously.
It was amazing, it was totally intense, Kyos voice was amazing, the whole concert was ... wow, just wow. I can't really find words for it.
I never, never had the feeling that a singer can touch me so deeply. It was amazing. Just amazing.

And I am so, so glad that I'll see them in Berlin again. I can't wait for it. I could go right now to Diru again XD

So, so awesome :D

I think, I'll start to write my review and will post it tomorrow. :D

Good night. I try to find some sleep. Maybe that could be a little bit difficult, because my neck is hurting like hell. Too much banging XDDD

Image and video hosting by TinyPic
haebin: (Misc 7)
Image Hosted by ImageShack.us

Today is THE day! Oh my fucking god, finally it is the day! I'll see Dir en Grey live!!! :D
Can't wait! And I swear, I am counting the seconds. I am so, so happy and excited, bouncy and nervous at the same time. Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah .... gosh, YAY! :D

Now I am waiting for Jutta and around 4.30 PM we'll drive to Saarbrücken. I don't want to wait for hours and hours and I don't wanna stay in the first row ^^
I only want to enjoy the concert, listen Kyo and screaming when Kaoru is standing in the front, being an awesome hot guitarist XDDD
haebin: (Misc 30)
OMFG, I can't believe it. Just one day, one fucking day. WAH, I am so nervous, bouncy and excited at the same time :D

Finally, after three years, I'll see Dir en Grey again. I can't wait, seriously. And I am pretty sure, I can't find sleep tonight *laughs*
God, I wanna see them so, so badly. I can't wait to bang my head off XDDD

And one of the best things ever: Jutta is coming with me :D

*takes a deep breath* ... waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah, tomorrow I'll see Kaoru! YAY!!!

Image and video hosting by TinyPic
haebin: (Misc 33)
I can’t believe it. Only three days and I’ll see Dir en Grey live. Finally! After three years. Gosh, slowly I start to become nervous. I can’t wait for it, seriously. The music, Kyos voice, the athmosphere, seeing Kaoru. Wow, just wow. I am so, so excited. When I am listening music of Diru, I feel like my heart is start to bumping like crazy.

And Kaoru … he is SO my type of a guy, seriously. His whole behaviour, his style, he is … the perfect boyfriend for me ^^
I was always (since my puberty) attracted by rockers/rockstars. A guy like Gackt is in my taste of guys a huge exception. ^^
And I realize that I start to fall back in my old habit :P

Today I found two cute pics of Kaoru and yesh, he is SO MY TYPE :P

You know, when I see him, I know, he is a true guy. Drinking beer, smoking, fucking girls. Yeah, that is how to live, bitches >P

Image and video hosting by TinyPic

Image and video hosting by TinyPic

Yeah … you know, you are really cool, ne? >P

And I found a blog-entry of Kaoru and he is just cool. Just cool. He doesn’t care about others. He is talking about his work and you can see, how important it is for him. I like the fact, that he doesn’t care about the bitchy talks of his fans :D

Fans believe that I've turned 'emo' for some reason...Just cause I don't feel like going into detail on my answers in interviews. Or when I change the subject or something. I just don't wanna talk about it. That's all there is to it. I don't wanna talk about feelings and how others should feel during a song. It's not being 'emo', whatever the fuck that is. I can't speak for the others with there emotions or how they feel, when the interviewers ask. They speak for themselves. I can't do that for them.

And there I go, talking about work again. Damn...Screw this, I'm getting a beer.

He is awesome, so awesome. A pure, honest guy. Like a man has to be for me *_*

Today my mum got a call from the hospital. Next Tuesday she has to go again and on Wednesday (my birthday) is her surgery. Great timing ^^

Nya, that’s all from me, take care :)


Image and video hosting by TinyPic
An awesome drawing of Kyo :3


haebin: (Default)

December 2016

2526 2728293031


RSS Atom

Most Popular Tags

Style Credit

Expand Cut Tags

No cut tags
Page generated Sep. 20th, 2017 01:57 am
Powered by Dreamwidth Studios