Coz..well, you see..I had such a high expectation of myself before. I wanted to be good in everything, and in my study I wanted to be a genius..like this scientist or that scientist..when of course I know I'm not as brilliant as they are. I'm so slow in my study and I have to work like 10 times more than other people to understand the same thing.

Then one day, I nearly killed myself driving like a maniac coz I was so angry for doing this mistake (coz I was crying and the road was all blurry). And then I taught myself to be patient to myself. That even if I improve in the future, the person who has improved will still be me and not somebody else. And I think I get less in rage now, that I can accept myself with all my shortcomings.

I got so many works heaped on me today. I think I will be buried under it until the end of this year >_< *cries*