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[haebin]

You Are a Retrospective Soul

The most misunderstood of all the soul signs. Sometimes you even have difficulty seeing yourself as who you are. You are intense and desire perfection in every facet of your life. You're best described as extremely idealistic, hardworking, and a survivor. Great moments of insight and sensitivity come to you easily. But if you aren't careful, you'll ignore these moments and repeat past mistakes. For you, it is difficult to seperate the past from the present. You will suceed once you overcome the disappoinments in life. Souls you are most compatible with: Traveler Soul and Prophet Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

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[ami007.livejournal.com]

Coz..well, you see..I had such a high expectation of myself before. I wanted to be good in everything, and in my study I wanted to be a genius..like this scientist or that scientist..when of course I know I'm not as brilliant as they are. I'm so slow in my study and I have to work like 10 times more than other people to understand the same thing.

Then one day, I nearly killed myself driving like a maniac coz I was so angry for doing this mistake (coz I was crying and the road was all blurry). And then I taught myself to be patient to myself. That even if I improve in the future, the person who has improved will still be me and not somebody else. And I think I get less in rage now, that I can accept myself with all my shortcomings.

I got so many works heaped on me today. I think I will be buried under it until the end of this year >_< *cries*

[haebin.livejournal.com]

And then I taught myself to be patient to myself

My doc said this to me too.
"You have to be patient, Anke. You have to accept your Illness. You have to be nice to yourself, accept that you are a human being."
I know that, really. This is in my mind, but I can't realize it. I try it so hard, every day, every second, but I fail everytime. And that gives me the feeling that I'm such a loser ;_;

[ami007.livejournal.com]

I know that, really. This is in my mind, but I can't realize it. I try it so hard, every day, every second, but I fail everytime.
Yep. It's not easy. And I always fail too. But I try very hard not to compare myself to other people who are too much better than me. And I always look around at the people who dig ditches and clean my lab building and tell myself..they have a harder life than I and they're still smiling.

And I used to think I'm too old to start improving myself again, but then this thot crossed my mind one day..what if I live another 30 years? I see old people around me all the time and they're still working hard to improve their lives. So that's how I teach myself to be patient..everyday I tell myself, "look around and learn and dun be too angry. You'll be o-ke."

I'm learning to forgive myself when I make mistakes too. I think that's the hardest one. ^^;