Sata

[haebin]

Today i made another beautiful experience. here at the hostel is a girl named sata. she is beautiful. when i saw her for the first time she got totally my attention. she said her name, gave me a handshake and smiled.
So, when I sat here at the *livingroom* she was next to me and I thought on a sentence which I ve read in the book that alecs gave me.
When u are having a positive thought, share it. u will make the other person happy and you, too.
So, I smiled at her and said: Sata, I have to say something to you. U are really beautiful, I love your stile. I think u are really a beautiful person.

And yes, so I broke the ice, the border. I did it. I did what I felt and she gave me her warmest smile and she opened up and we talked a lot. She is a hippie-girl with dreadlocks and she is having the most beautiful smile on earth and a deep heart and a very deep soul. I am so, so glad that I made this trip. That I am opening myself, starting to get re-born with every day. For now I am done with the people who hurt me. That was a lesson, not a mistake. They showed me my borders.
Now I am prepared for the good ones who are in my life. my family, jutta, my friends. I think I start to accept that they are loving me. Not asking anymore why they are doing that. They have their reasons. The most important thing is, they love me. Me. For what I am.

I hope that this journey is bringing me more such wonderful experiences, making me stronger, helping me to heal, to accept the dark path which I went through the last 5 years.

Love,
Anke

Comments

[haebin.livejournal.com]

Joah, ich bin selbst ueberrascht, das ich sowas geschrieben habe. Bin doch recht emotional, hehe. Aber der Gedanke, das zu teilen, was uns gluecklich macht, den finde ich sehr schoen. Und es ist wirklich so, wenn du so etwas machst, dann werden die wenigstens leute dich zurueckweisen. und wenn sie es tun, dann kennen sie es nicht und haben Angst davor.
Man sieht, Sata und ich hatten ein sehr, sehr langes gespraech :)