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Sunday.
Our smartphones woke us up at 7:30 a.m., so we all got up on time. I quickly jumped in the shower, and since I knew there was no seat or handle to hold on to, I just got under the water, washed myself quickly, and was done in no time. The whole shower only took two minutes, but by then I was already at the end of my tether.
I had decided to wear my medieval dress and, unsurprisingly, the zipper broke when my mother tried to close it.
Somehow, I had the feeling that fate just didn't want this trip to go well or work out. Everything that could possibly go wrong did. We all got ready and ordered a taxi for 8:30 a.m., as we had an early access ticket that allowed us to enter the convention hall at 9 a.m.
The taxi driver was nice, but he had one problem. He didn't know where to drop us off.
Jaarbeus is a huge complex with numerous hotels, theaters, museums, and restaurants, and to be honest, you don't know where to go. O.O
It's probably easy for people who live in Utrecht, but not for someone who was there for the first time.
The taxi driver was so kind that he only charged us 13 euros and didn't charge us for the time he spent looking for a place to drop us off.
At some point, we all thought we were halfway there when we saw a lot of people walking past us. Always follow the crowd, right?

We paid the taxi driver, got out of the car, and were shocked by the freezing cold wind blowing.
I wished the entrance had been a little closer, as I have trouble walking, but there was nothing I could do about it. So we just followed the crowd until we reached the entrance.
I was filled with nervousness, fear, and such stress that, after the chaos with the hotel and our car breaking down, it just felt unbearable. We then joined the queue for the early access entrance. I was surprised that the hall was already open, as it wasn't even 9 a.m. yet. There were a few people ahead of us, but everything went quite quickly and without any further problems.

The nice thing was that right behind the entrance, you entered the main hall where the main stage, the photo booths, and the signing tables were located. We all walked back and forth, looked at everything, and then asked at the photo booth how the whole procedure worked. I was so incredibly nervous that I wanted to know everything, step by step, because if I know something like that, I can “work” with it and give myself the confidence/security I need.
I have to admit that I was already at the end of my tether, as I can't really walk “that much”. For everyone else, this isn't a problem or a real issue, but for me, unfortunately, it's not that easy. My mother and I sat down at a table, talked a little and watched the people, while Sarah walked around the hall a bit and looked around.
I sat there the whole time watching the photo booth to see how many people would line up. On the one hand, I didn't want to be the first one there, but at the same time I was afraid that something would happen again and I wouldn't be able to take the photo with Neil.

I was just so incredibly nervous and anxious after everything that hadn't gone so well.
It was just before 10 a.m. and Neil was scheduled to arrive at 10:15 a.m. Since there were already a few people in line, Sarah suggested that we join the queue. And at that moment, it was over for me. I was filled with fear, felt sick, and had unbearable stomach pains. But everyone around me was super nice and took care of me. My mother kept stroking my back, Sarah held my hand, and the young women from the convention asked me a few questions to see if I was okay and if I needed anything. To our right was the line for people who didn't have early access, and a young woman said to me and my mom that we looked great. Aaawww! :3

It was soon 10:15 a.m., but Neil took his time arriving. It was 10:35 when my mother and Sarah said at the same time, “Oh, Neil's here, we just saw him.”
Did I see him? Of course not, lol. XD
I thought it was pretty cool that suddenly music started playing, which was probably his idea.
And then the line started to move... O_O
And with every step, I felt more and more nauseous and the fear was just so intense. They asked me if I wanted to include the walker in the picture (no!) and then allowed my mother to come with me —also for emotional support— and take care of the walker while we took the picture.

The closer I got, the more anxious I became. The only thought I had was: Please, Anke, don't throw up on his shoes. Please.
Then I stepped around the corner and there he was. I kind of assumed he would be there because I had seen the photographer and the other fans, and everything happened so fast. It was as if I didn't dare to look at him. And suddenly he was standing in front of me and looking at me with this really sweet smile. I don't think I've ever felt as comfortable and welcome as I did in that moment. It was as if there was only me, as if this was a bubble in which I was safe, secure, and accepted. I then approached him very slowly and shyly with my walker and put it to one side.
He then said with that warm smile, “Hi, I'm Neil. What's your name?”
And he held out his hand to greet me, which I then took and shook.
I was still so anxious and uncertain that I almost whispered, “Hi. I'm Anke.”

At that moment, my mother came up behind us, took the walker and tried to walk past, but Neil quickly realized what was happening and took a step forward. He then leaned forward and greeted her with a “Hi.” I told him that she was my mom, and he replied, “I thought so.”
Neil then turned to my mom and asked her her name. I thought it was sweet to see her pause for a moment, as she wanted to answer him in perfect English.G
“My name is Christine and... I... I like you.”
I saw him smiling when he said, “Awww, thank you, Mami! (He called my mum Mami, squeee!!). Nice to meet you!"
Then he turned back to me and looked at me as if he wanted to ask me what my idea for the photo was.

I thought long and hard about what that would be, as I don't really feel comfortable in front of the camera. Yes, I sometimes take selfies, but they are always taken from a special angle so that I find myself halfway tolerable. I avoid looking directly into the camera and, above all, showing my entire body. I'm happy for anyone who can do that, but I have such problems showing myself. So I thought about it long time until I had an idea. So maybe we could just look at each other? And I wanted to ask him if that was okay with him, because... maybe it would be too personal or uncomfortable for him and I didn't want to upset him.

So he stood in front of me, looked at me questioningly, and I wanted to explain my idea to him. My words were: “Actually, I'm afraid to look into the camera...”
And at that moment, he took my hands in his and said, “Look at me.”
And I did. He was so smart, he reacted so quickly to my words, and that was exactly what I was looking for. I don't feel comfortable with staged photos, I don't have the confidence to show myself, I just wanted a picture that captured this moment.
The moment I had been waiting for so long.
And it seemed as if he understood immediately. The touch of his hands was so soft and the smile he gave me was so honest and warm. And then I thanked him several times and said goodbye again and again.

When the photo was printed, I heard young women saying over and over how cute it was and how good we both looked. :3
And then suddenly Sarah was standing next to me, who also had her photo with Neil. Since the next event was the panel with the Baldur's Gate 3 team and the people from Claire Obscure 33, we went straight to the main stage and found a place to sit. :3

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Current Mood: tired.
Current Location: home.
Current Music: Baldur's Gate 3 OST

Saturday.
I woke up at 6:30am and decided to feed the little cat right away and then lie down again, as I was really tired. I had gone to bed shortly after midnight, but I was so nervous that I couldn't fall asleep until around 2am. And despite my nervousness, I managed to fall asleep again until 8:30am.
I then got up, enjoyed a nice, warm shower, got ready, and spent the time on the sofa, as we didn't want to leave until around 10am.
Shortly before it was time to go, I put Ivi in my room for five minutes and closed the door behind me so that she wouldn't suddenly dash out while we opened the door to the apartment to carry all the luggage to the car. When we were done, we went back upstairs, took her out of the room, of course, and gave her a long hug goodbye.
I must admit that I was a little tired, but the prospect of arriving in Utrecht around 2:30/3:00pm and then being able to spend the whole day in my hotel room gave me the strength to push through.

I wasn't nervous or anxious at all; I just felt that the possibility of meeting Neil wasn't real.
I was in complete denial, possibly to protect myself or to keep my fears and insecurities under control.
There wasn't much traffic on the highway, and we had been driving for about half an hour when suddenly, out of nowhere, our car started to “stutter” and steadily lost speed. On the highway... with numerous cars traveling at a minimum speed of 120 km/h.
120, 110, 100, 90, 80, 60, 40, 20... and with the last stutter, we were just able to pull into a parking bay on the side of the highway, with an emergency phone just a few steps away.

I will always remember my mother's words... Our car is broken.
I can't even describe how I felt. Numb, hopeless, sad. We looked at each other, and the next thing we did was reach for our handbags and wallets to get out our ADAC customer cards ( The ADAC, officially the Allgemeiner Deutscher Automobil-Club (lit. ‘General German Automobile Club’), is Europe's largest automobile association. The ADAC is the largest Verein (club) in Germany, with around 21 million members. Its headquarters are located in Munich. Its original and most well-known service is roadside assistance.)
I hate talking on the phone, I really panic about it, but I know that my mom has poor hearing and that it was simply not possible for her to make a phone call in that situation. You have no idea how incredibly loud a highway is when you're not driving on it.
So I called the ADAC hotline and had to wait about two minutes until I got a man on the other end of the line, to whom I then explained everything, i.e., what had happened, whether the car was still running (surprisingly, it still started, so apparently there was no engine damage), when it happened, and where exactly we were.

I do have a smart phone, but I'm not particularly interested in it. I use it to take photos or listen to podcasts. So it was really stressful for me to explain to the man exactly where we had ended up. I then realized that we had only managed to travel 40 km. :/
When I told the guy that we were right next to the highway (or actually right on it), he said that we had priority over other broken-down cars that, for example, wouldn't start in a town or were stuck somewhere on a country road. I cautiously asked how long we could expect to wait, and they said between 20 and 30 minutes. If the ADAC was nearby, they would call us back on our cell phone and let us know.
Okay.
The next step was to get out of the car and seek shelter behind the guardrail, wearing our safety vests, of course. And then we waited.

So we stood behind the guardrail at -6 degrees Celsius, and since I'm apparently not the smartest person, I had imagined that I would just get in the car at home and drive straight to Utrecht, and that it would be enough to wear a thin wool jacket over a thin sweater....
It was cold. Freezing cold. And we stood on the side of the highway for 1 ½ hours waiting until a man called to tell us that the ADAC tow truck was on its way. Then we had to wait another half hour.
I was frozen to the bone. At least my mother was smart enough to bring a blanket in the car that I could wrap myself in.

While we were waiting, we talked about what we should do.
If the car starts, then we can continue our journey, right, Anke?
My answer was that we should drive back. My mother was upset because she knew how much the trip meant to me and that I wouldn't get back a large part of the money I had spent.
But I was far too afraid to continue. What would happen if it happened again? What if there was no parking lot nearby? What if the car broke down in Holland? How would we get back? How much would it cost?

The young mechanic took a look at everything, even kneeling down several times to look under the car. I sat next to him while he started and stopped the car and drove it forward and backward. He couldn't find any problems. He speculated that it was either the engine or something else (unfortunately, I can't remember what) that works with the engine and that something was broken.
He then asked us what we wanted to do. Continue driving? Or should he take us back, in which case he would have to call his boss first to clarify the situation.

We are very grateful that the ADAC gave us the go-ahead to take us home, because we only have basic coverage, which would have taken us to the nearest repair shop. But since it was Saturday, they were already closed, so we were taken home. I sat in the back of the tow truck and texted Sarah on my cell phone to tell her what had happened and that I couldn't come. Without hesitation, her response was: I'll pick you up....
O_O
I hadn't expected that at all, and I didn't really know if I could accept it. She told me over and over again that it wasn't a problem, that we would find a way to get to Utrecht and have a great weekend.
I remind you that Sarah was at work. We texted back and forth, re-planned everything, and then agreed that she would go home after work, take a shower, eat something, and then drive to meet me.

The trip would take between two and three hours, and we would probably set off for Utrecht around midnight. We got home at around 3pm, which was when we should have arrived in Utrecht. I lay down to get some sleep, but I couldn't manage more than two hours.
I had also informed Jutta that she shouldn't be alarmed when she arrived at our place in the evening, as we would most likely be sitting on the couch waiting. When she arrived at around 6:30pm, we just talked, and despite all the stress, it was really nice to see my best friend again and give her a hug.
From 11pm onwards, I became quite nervous because I was afraid that something had happened to Sarah. A generalized anxiety disorder often leads to imagining absolutely EVERYTHING in an absolute horror scenario. But 20 minutes later, the doorbell rang and Sarah picked us up. So we went down to the car, stowed the luggage and the walker, and then drove off.
And before we set off, I had checked in at the hotel at noon and written to them that my arrival would be delayed. I also booked a room for Sarah at my expense, because that was the least I could do for her after she had decided to pick us up. And there was no question of her spending the night in the car. No way!

The highway was pretty empty and the weather was good - no snow, no fog, no rain. So we left shortly before midnight and arrived in Utrecht at 4:30 in the morning, where we were greeted by a lot of snow. Despite the long journey, the trip was pleasant because Sarah and I talked constantly, moving from one topic to another. We didn't really have a moment of silence because we got along so well. The last 30-40 minutes of the trip were through Holland, and the closer we got to the Dutch border, the quieter I became.
And then, suddenly, I had a panic attack.
I noticed how I was becoming quieter, how breathing was becoming more and more difficult, how my thoughts were really stumbling and I couldn't form a clear sentence anymore.

Sarah quickly realized how I was feeling and helped me through the panic attack with lots of kind words and breathing exercises. (Did I mention that this young woman is an absolute angel?)
So we arrived at the hotel at 4:30am, parked in the last available parking space, and I checked in.
I asked the young man if Sarah could come to our room with us, as I needed help, and his answer was: “Under the circumstances, that's fine with me.” Then he and security carried our luggage and our walker up the stairs.
We went into the room, put our things down, and decided to skip breakfast and lie down until 8:30am so we could get at least a little sleep. And since we had a large king-size bed, we all fit in it and were able to recharge our batteries a bit before leaving the hotel at 8:30am on our way to the comic convention. :3

Current Mood: good.
Current Location: home.
Current Music: Bill Medley - (I've had) The Time Of My Life (Dirty Dancing OST)

When I found out two weeks ago that Neil —and Tim too— were coming to Utrecht and that this would be my chance to finally see him, I was quite surprised at how quickly I took charge of the situation. First, I looked for a flight, but quickly realized that Utrecht doesn't have an airport and that it would be impossible for me to get to Utrecht from Amsterdam by train or bus. That was the first moment when I thought, hm, this isn't going to work. And then my mother asked how far away it actually was. So I looked it up and found out that it's almost 400 kilometers and takes about four hours to drive there. She then suggested that she would drive me there. I was so surprised that at first I didn't know how to react, but she was completely serious. The next step was to ask Jutta if she was free that weekend. We talked on the phone and she told me she couldn't make it because she was taking a carpentry course on Saturday. That was the second moment when I thought, well, this isn't going to work either. Right?

And then I had the idea to ask if she could perhaps look after Ivi on Sunday so I could go to the Convention, and yes, she could. She even suggested that she would come to my place on Saturday afternoon after her carpentry class and then look after Ivi for half the day, all of Sunday, and Monday morning!
And that was my cue to put my plan into action. So, I bought tickets for the convention (for my mom and me, because I didn't want to use her as a taxi driver and I know how much fun she had at Magic Con), the ticket for Neil's photo booth, and accommodation at the Ibis Hotel, less than a kilometer from Jaarbeus, where the convention was held. And then I counted down the minutes, and when the last week began, I really had to fight hard against my nervousness.
Even in therapy, the trip to Utrecht was a topic of discussion, and Franziska managed to calm me down somewhat.

On the evening when I made all the decisions and placed the first bookings, I was chatting with Sarah. She was incredibly happy that I finally had the chance to meet Neil, but at the same time a little sad because her trip to the convention in Brussel had been rather stressful.
We were both sure that we would find a convention somewhere next year that we could both go to. I then suggested that she come with me and that we meet in Utrecht on Sunday and all go to the convention together. Sarah was unsure because she was afraid of having such a stressful time again, even though she told me that she didn't really think that would happen if we were traveling together. I understood her concerns, and we immediately set our rules, such as that it's okay to split up if she needs some quiet time or just wants to go shopping. That we always have the option to pause and say, “Wait a minute, I need some time to myself right now” or “I'm feeling stressed.” In those moments, we would do what was good for us and meet up at the meeting point. We really planned everything. From our time together, our meeting place, the time, the fact that we would meet at the hotel in the morning so she could store her backpack in my room, etc.

Sarah had booked a bus ticket from Strasbourg to Utrecht for a ten-hour journey from Saturday evening to Sunday morning.
Since Mom and I didn't want to stress ourselves out, I had booked a hotel room for Saturday to Monday. Our plan was to leave around 10 a.m. on Saturday morning, as we wanted to check in around 3 p.m.
We didn't want to stress ourselves out and wanted to take the 400-kilometer journey in a relaxed manner. I was quite calm and relaxed after therapy on Thursday, but then I noticed that I was getting slight stomach pains from excitement.

On Thursday evening, I received a message from the Ibis Hotel...

„Dear guest,

We are excited that you booked a stay with us at ibis Utrecht!

With this email, we would like to inform you about some specifics regarding our hotel during your stay. Due to unforeseen additional work following our renovations, you may experience some noise disturbance on weekdays between 9 AM and 4 PM, and we currently have fewer parking spaces available. Additionally, our elevator is temporarily out of order. All hotel rooms remain easily accessible via the stairs... „

One day and a few hours before we drive to Utrecht to check in. Hey, I have no problem with renovations, and the noise didn't bother me either, since we were there on the weekend, but... the elevator isn't working? And the rooms are “easy” to reach in a hotel that has four or five floors? Honestly, I was pissed.
The hotel has apparently been renovating for quite some time, and I assume they could have informed me when I made the booking... but they didn't.
I was too stressed to look for another hotel so close to my trip to Utrecht. IN ADDITION, as I said, I wouldn't have gotten a refund if I had canceled the stay. If you pay via PayPal, that's not possible... I mean, it's paid for, so why isn't that option offered?

Well, I sat there and thought to myself, OK, this isn't my problem, guys. I'm a guest, you have to take care of it. So I wrote an email and asked for a disabled-accessible room (as described on the website) that was either on the ground floor OR on the first floor at most. I have limited mobility, I have obvious muscle and nerve weakness, and I definitely don't have the strength to carry my 10 kg walker up or down stairs. And I certainly won't ask my 73-year-old mother to do so.
Incidentally, I then received a reply saying that the accessible room (with an accessible bathroom!) was “out of order”...
However, I was then offered another “accessible” room, whose door is not wheelchair accessible. But I could get in with my walker. When I got there, the shower had no seat and the toilet had no handle that I could hold on to or pull myself up with.
Sigh...

I had been assured in the email that they would help me with my luggage and walker and bring them to my booked room. I told my mother about this, and she wasn't really happy about it because she knew that it would be very difficult for both of us to use the stairs and, as I said, carry our things upstairs. But I was very aware that I was asserting my rights as a guest. I wouldn't have done that years ago. I would have nodded and struggled my way up with the walker and the luggage. But I am disabled and I need help, and I now demand it.

We spent Friday evening packing my suitcase and her bag. I think we took mostly food and drinks with us, since we wanted to stay in the room anyway. I was nervous, but at the same time excited, even though it felt so unreal that there was a real chance I could meet Neil.

I had been nervous all week about whether he would actually show up in Utrecht, since he had to cancel the convention in Liverpool last week. He streamed in the evening last week and said at the end that he would be going to Holland over the weekend. \o/
One less thing to worry about.
I went to bed around midnight and was surprised that I fell asleep relatively quickly...

( Little Helper! )

Much Love,
Anke~

Current Mood: tired.
Current Location: home.
Current Music: Evan Wood @ TV

Merry Christmas
Happy Holidays
Happy Hanuka
Happy Winter Solstice
Happy Kwanzaa

And I am sending Love to those who are ...

grieving a loss during the holidays

homesick for family and friends

mentally and physically drained

trying to hold it all together

struggling to make magic for their kids

worried about what the future holds

♥️

Current Location: home.

Knowing that neither Janika nor Jutta would be coming to the Comic Convention in Stuttgart was a real downer.
Especially because Janika had such a long journey (from Berlin) and had to pay most of the costs. But I know that she made the right decision not to take the flight and the whole trip with an unhealed pneumonia and a low oxygen level.
I spoke to her briefly today and she is still ill. Jutta is now so well again that she has decided to go back to work. Unfortunately, she still has that annoying cough.

I spoke to Carina on Friday evening and she assured me that she and her husband Dennis, including their son Robin, would be coming to Stuttgart. They were also joined by a young woman from Munich who wrote to Carina on Vagabonds (Neil's Discord) and asked if she could join them because she was struggling with anxiety in large crowds. That wasn't a problem for me at all and Freya got in touch with me and we spent the evening chatting.

I packed my suitcase on Friday afternoon and was so anxious and nervous afterwards that I decided to take my emergency medication. It definitely helped me to calm down and think clearly again. By 10 o'clock in the evening I was so tired that I actually went to bed and fell asleep straight away. I was awake by six o'clock in the morning. My flight left at 12.40PM so I had enough time to take a warm bath, get dressed and then wait. And to my own surprise, I wasn't nervous at all. O_o
Maybe because I planned everything over and over again or tried to calm my mother who was a lot more nervous than me. So we set off at 9 in the morning, but first had to clear the ice from our car as it had been incredibly cold during the night. The drive to the airport took between 20 and 25 minutes and we drove to the airport parking garage. The way to Terminal 1 was still not close, lol. It's unbelievable how big Frankfurt Airport is.
What I really liked was the fact that everything was already decorated for Christmas. *_*

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Current Mood: in pain.
Current Location: home.
Current Music: Germany's Next Topmodel @ TV

...that you'll miss me @ everyone. u all making it so damn hard for me to leave singapore, seriously. we will keep in touch, i am coming back and yes, i will miss u too, for sure.

Current Mood: indescribable
Current Location: Fernloft Lavender, Singapore

And I am excited!
I'll go to the Raffles hotel today! Making more pictures, lol. after that i will walk around!
at 11AM I'll meet alecs in chinatown. and when we are finished I am waiting for jamies call, because she wanna bring me to some stores, where i can buy this beautiful dresses for less than 30 singapore dollar. if that is true and the dresses are so beautiful like this one I am wearing right now, I'll buy a lot for myself, I swear XD
And when I am coming back I'll go straight back to my bed, lol.
right now I am going to bed at 9pm so that I am able to see Singapore in the morning :3

Hm, one week less here in Singapore. Gosh, the time went by so damn fast. I can't believe it. but I've seen a lot. and i met really amazing and lovable people here :3

yesterday sarah gave me a book she bought here in singapore as a goodbye-present because she left for indonesia. okay, it is about god, but who cares? if it helps, fine. if not, it's okay, too.
but the fact that she thought on me is just ... awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!

so, now i'll chat a little bit more with jutta! :)

hope, I can write another entry when I am back and no one is at the internet XD

See ya! :3

Current Mood: restless
Current Location: Fernloft Lavender, Singapore
Current Music: SHINee - RingDingDong

~~I will go to Chinatown this evening together with Alecs and Mae. Today it starts the chinese new year there, so I am kinda excited :)~~

Ok, I am sick. really sick. the problems with my stomach became worse and I got a cold sore *sigh*
So I took a cab to Mustafa and a pharmacy. I really don't like those malls because they are so huge that you can't find something.
I bought some creme against the cold sore and some pills against the stomach pains.
My Grace from the hostel is very worried about me and said I should go to a doctor. She would bring me to one if I want.
But let's see. I will take the medicine now and hoping that it will become better.
For tomorrow I actually wanted to go to Chinatown or Burgis, but I think I will stay at home, concentrating myself of becoming healthy. It's a little time-out, that is not so bad.
I have still time and when I don't see everything in this trip, I'll see it when I am coming back.

Don't worry.
Lots of Love,
Anke

Current Mood: sleepy
Current Location: Fernloft Lavender, Singapore

seriously, I am turning into a vampire here, lol.
I am sleeping so long and going way too late in my bed ^^
but i am enjoying every second :3
today i went with grace together to the cinema and we watched "Legion", a pretty cool movie. Paul Bettany was the leading actor and he was so, so cool! I like him :3
after that we walked around the orchard road. gosh, in the evening it is so, so full ^^
and u can see a lot of foreigners there.
so, we went to takashimaya, sat at the fountain and made silly pictures, lol. I tend to be such a camwhore here in singapore >P
After that we went to a shop and ate there damn yummy icecream :D
was so, so tasty. So, Grace and I wanna go to the cinema next week again, watching the movie with Jamie Foxx and Gerald Butler, it looked really cool!

for tomorrow i'll probably going to the singapore flyer with alecs together. i am not so sure about it, i am still waiting for his message :)
when he is busy tomorrow I'll go to Burgis, Chinatown or visiting Suntec City. I am not sure about it. I will decide tomorrow, I think.

And I realized today that I won't see everything what i wanted to see in singapore because i love it to hang around with my friends instead of doing sight-seeing, lol XD

That means I can still come back and explore more beautiful sides of Singapore :)

So, I hope everyone is fine and enjoying themselves!

Take care :)

Anke

Current Mood: satisfied
Current Location: Fernloft Lavender, Singapore

Today I've met Grace :D
And Graces sister and her sisters boyfriend. And i had a a great time. Ivon is so cute and so open-minded and her boyfriend billy is from norway, a guy with a lot of tattoos and piercings. we all had an amazing connection to each other and I enjoyed the time so, so much!
We went to the Orchard Ion, to Takashimaya, Orchard Roard, Burgis ... and I am dead now, lol. So, so tired. I tried to make some pictures of the Orchard Ion but all of them got blurry :(
Tomorrow I am going with Grace together in the cinema, yay! Watching a movie with Jay Chou ... double yay!
Hope u all are having a great time! :)

Going to bed now, oyasumi :)

Anke! :)

Current Mood: tired
Current Location: Fernloft Lavender, Singapore
Current Music: TV@Background

oh my god, I had an amazing day. just an amazing day.
but let me start from the beginning.

yesterday i did nothing. seriously, i slept the whole day. and when I woke up ... i did nothing, lol. in the evening i went out with jamie for dinner in the food centre. we had a long and intense talk about our lives and it was very touching. seriously, i am learning so, so much here. about the people, their lifes, my life. about emotions, the life, about religion or how to handle the life.
this trip is so inspiring. I am meeting so many beautiful people, making new experiences. It is amazing, just amazing.

Sadly yesterday evening i had trouble with my stomach again. normally i don't have any problems with asian food, but this time i am extremely sensitive. so i throw up twice yesterday :(
I really felt horrible, tried to go early to bed, but couln't sleep.

so, to wake up at 8am this morning was pretty hard. but i hate a *date* with alecs on 10.30am
I thought, okay, u have enough time, u can take a long, hot shower. i was SO WRONG, lol. the water was icecold. so i needed only 5 minutes, lol. I left the hostel 9am, took the bus 147 to the central. So I was there ... 1 hour and 15 minutes too early, lol. I sat on the Singapore river and watched people. I really love it there.
so, alecs came too late. he is nagging about me the whole time that i am too slow, but he is always so late. we are the perfect couple, lol.

so, we met us and went to the mrt ... and ... omg, that was so embarrassing, rofl. the ground was slippery and of course ... I slipped out, looool. but thanks god I didn't fell on my ass in front of him. he was pretty fast and grabbed me ... and he didn't take his hand away *giggles*
It was one of those moments ... like in a bad dorama, rofl.

So, we went to the station and talked and took the mrt to the harbour ... place, whatever XD

so, vivo city is a huge mall. a really huge mall. u can walk there for hours and hours and u doesn't see everything. i thought about buying stuff for my family and friends, but honestly ... i don't know what to buy, lol o_O
I really want to buy stuff for family and friends but when I am seeing things I don't have the urge to buy o.O"
maybe when I am close to leaving singapore. let us see.

so, i walked around with alecs, he bought me something to eat and then we found at the information centre some flyers about the next concerts ... and I found one flyer I was pretty attached to it.

on february 1st and 2nd there is a concert at the esplanade concert hall.
"Oh Joonsung Drama Concert - Music from Korean Drama Favourites"
...
......
With special Appereances by:
Bobby Kim, Mario& and ... SHINee
...
o.O
omfg ... SHINee? SHINee are coming to Singapore? O.O
...

O.O!
I was like ... oh no, I can't attend it. it is too expensive and ... I don't know.
So, when Alecs left me around 12.30pm, I went to the terrace and thought ... wtf? Why can't u going, Anke? Tell me one fucking reason about it?
so, i was insecure at the date. Would I be still there at february 1st? So I messaged Jutta to call my mum and ask for my last day here in Singapore because I am always forgetting when I have to leave, lol.
So, Jutta did it and called my mum, rofl XDDD (in germany it was around 8am) ... DANKEEEEEEE! DANKE FUER DEINE HILFE MAUS!

And when I got the message, that I am still here at February 1st, I went to the information centre and asked there for the ticket. And I could buy it there. So I did it XD
I am going to another concert and seeing SHINee! HOW FUCKING COOL IS THAT?!?!
Now I am seeing for the first time in my life korean artists, woooooohoooooo!!!

so, i was totally happy and went to the terrace again. and it is really beautiful there. u can walk around and sit ... and playing in the water XD

U can have a first impression of it here:

http://travelerfolio.com/travelerfolio/photos/vivo_city_singapore.jpg

http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/6/61/VivoCity_60.JPG

it is really an awesome place and I enjoyed it so much. for hours, lol. and of course i got a new sunburn, rofl XD
but i don't care because i had a really awesome time there!

so, i was truly blessed because i watched a beautiful sunset there and made amazing pictures! :D

I left vivo city in the evening and because i was so fucking lazy i took a cab. and i swear, singaporean cab drivers are funny. i had a really and interesting talk with the driver and laughed so, so much. he talked about singapore and the foreigners, asked me whether i would teach children here or not oO
i was surprised and asked him why he is thinking something like that. he answered: your english is for a german pretty amazing and u are a pretty young woman, so i think u are teaching or studying.
I told him that i would love to work here and he said, many foreigners who are having a brain (lol) are able to work and to live here without problems. it would be very easy to find a job in singapore so i should try it!

cool, ne? so many people are thinking i would teach here o.O

So, when i came back from the hostel and our grace asked me where I was today. So i told her in the next second that i am going to a concert. and she said, aaaaaah, i wanna go there, too XD
Maybe she will buy a ticket as well and so we can go together, lol XDDDD

awesome, so awesome!

nya, right now i am back at the hostel, sitting at the lounge and watching with the other tv.
oh by the way, i am totally silly. i made several pictures of my fingers today. i draw some funny faces on it and made pictures. like pictures of my feet, rofl.
i have way too much fun to make silly pictures, lol.

and i played with a little boy today at vivo city. i swear, when u have the time, do it as well! take off your shoes (not now, but when the first sunshine is here!) and walk barefeet through the grass and jump in a ... waterthingie, lol. i don't know the right word XDDDD

so, for tomorrow i will meet grace, her sister ivon and her boyfriend XDDDD

This will be an amazing week, seriously!!!

take care everyone!!!

Anke :DDD

Current Mood: ecstatic
Current Location: Fernloft Lavender, Singapore
Current Music: TV@Background

I am still feeling sick. and i don't know why. like i wrote it in the other entry, i woke up this morning and had horrible stomach pains. alecs said to me i have to use the oil which i bought it and rubb it on my belly. it actually helped a little bit. it was a warm feeling like my mum would stroke my belly ^^

for today i am doing nothing. i wanted to go out, but i am not feeling so well. so, i only left the hostel for eating something and buying water. now I am back and i think, i'll stay in my room for the whole evening.

today a lot of students came to the hostel, so it is booked out and lout and too many people are around. at least for me.
another girl came in my room, too, so i am not alone anymore. that means, here are a lot of people and i think i can't use the computer terminal so often like the last days, sorry. so i can't replying on your comments so fast. i am sorry for that.

when i feel a little bit better tomorrow i will use the time to go to the swimming complex. for tomorrow evening i want to go out with alecs and the wife. he want to bring me to a korean restaurant and said to me, u have to eat faster
:/

i am really so, so slow :(
but when i would be so fast like him he couldn't pick on me, so it's okay.

und mama, falls du mitliest, wie geht es euch und was macht kiki, meine kleine maus? ich hab von ihr heute nacht getraeumt. was ist mir ihr, sucht sie denn wenigstens mal ab und zu nach mir oder hat sie mich schon vergessen? :)

Luv ya,
Anke

Current Mood: sick
Current Location: Fernloft Lavender, Singapore
Current Music: too many noises around me

today i told u that i am very lazy and sleepy, ne? so i thought, i would only going to the lavender food square today, meeting alecs, having lunch, saying goodbye and going back to the hostel for sleep...
MEEP! WRONG!
When I am together with alecs i never know what happens. thinking about eating here? no way. we have to go like 30 minutes far away (is ja nicht so, als wuerden wir zwischenzeitlich an 100 foodshops vorbeilaufen, rofl). so, when I was close to a breakdown because of the heat, he finally found a shop which was good enough, lol.
and trust me, I tried some strange things. at first I've eat some noodles with meat, that was very tasty. I had some soup with vegetables, some fish eggs *and no, no caviar ... it was actually some fish meat pressed into a ball*, fish *it was extremely gelly but kay* and some meat balls. The last taste pretty nice.
Alecs ate some pig intestines and said always I should try it. But no way. Doen't matter what I feel for him, but I am NOT eating this.

the funniest thing is, that I can always laugh with alecs. he has an awesome humor and I am laughing so, so often. really cute are our funny conversations. they are awesome. We had one today and when I am thinking about it, I am still giggling.
so, when we went to the fortune teller, I had to lay my hands on a stone. don't ask me for what.
so, we had this conversation:

alecs: so what did u feel when u touched the stone?
me: it was actually pretty cold
alecs: oh yeah ... because it was a stone
me: no, not this way. it was a strange coldness
alecs: yeah, that was because the stone stood next to an air conditioner >_>"
me: -_-
alecs: HELLOOOOOOOOOO?!? I am a stone, of course I am cold xDDD

so, we having the most strange conversations ever. He told me about I should visit a prostitute, just for looking. making pictures and so on o.O
I asked him why he knows about such things *blinkblink* and he answered in this cool way: because I am a guy.

I don't know how often I started to laugh. he is awesome. and cute. supercute! (that's a thing he said about himself :P)

So, we went to the Mustafa Complex and I joined him when he bought something for his shop. Even then we made some jokes, lol.
When he was finished, we made a picture for facebook and I hope I am not looking ugly or too fat, lol.

So, he left me and I went around a little bit. So, I bought something to drink and sat on a bench. After a while I saw a guy sitting there, staring at me o.O
At first I thought, okay, maybe he wants to be nice ... and everytime I looked he smiled. So I was really confused about it. The next time when I took a look in his direction, he sat on the next table o.O
After five minutes he stood next to me o____O
And he started a conversation. Oh wait, let me say it like it really was ... he tried it, but his accent was so hard that I had problems to understand him o.O
I talked about a boyfriend and not having time, went in the next shop to buy some stuff for my hair ... as I noticed that the guy followed me o____O
I was confused and after some minutes I became really annoyed. Then he disappeared and was so happy because I thought, yes, finally he is away ... and then he appeared again in the corridor I stood and asked me: ready for loving?

...

..........

WHAT THE FUCK YOU DUMBASS?
No, I am not ready for making love with an indian stranger. u are so NOT my type of a guy and I am NOT going with the next one in a hotel, having sex -__-
I guess, my reaction of his question was pretty clear so he left the shop. Gosh, I was ... grrrrrrr
Damn those guys. First the two black ones, now the indian one. Hey, I AM in asia. where are the asian ones? LOL.

Anyway, I had a really nice talk with Grace from the hostel now. Nearly 2 hours. She is so cute and she is looking like Lucy Liu :D

I think, I'll go to my room now, changing clothes and going to the swimming complex XD

Like Alecs said ... are u going there for sinking down or swimming? XDDDDD
Lol, I told him that I can't swim, so I am just enjoying the water *____*

See u, Sweethearts XD
**/

Current Mood: hot
Current Location: Fernloft Lavender, Singapore

yeah, right, i did it. went to the swimming complex today. and it was so, so, so cool *___*
when it is so hot like here and u are going into the pool, the cool water is floating over youre body. best feeling ever. i enjoyed it so, so much. i think, i will visit the swimming complex more than just once :D
actually i wanted to go in the morning, but i slept so long (ah, the fortune teller yesterday told me i have to sleep more) und didn't want to leave my bed, lol.
so i went to the swimming complex at 1PM. when i left the hostel the heat hit me. it was so, so hot and i really had the feeling of burning. but hey, no pain, go gain ... like ... no sun, no water? :P

I went to the pool several times, back to the bench, finished my third book, slept a little bit and messaged like crazy with alecs.

ok, that is kinda mean. when i am in germany i am never using my cellphone, lol. ask jutta :P
it is really hard to find any contact with me. but now? I am sending messages like an addict, lol. but u know, when u are messaging 10x here, u get 50 more messages for free. so, why should i ignore this offer? :P

For tomorrow I'll meet alecs again, yay :D
he is bringing me to his doc because of my backpains. after that we are going to his hairdresser. he had a really cute thought today and I have to share it. he send me this message:
anyway, just a thought, since you are changing, wanna go see my hair dresser and ge a new hair do, like a perm? ;)

at first i thought, wtf. but after some minutes i asked myself, why not? okay, not really for a perm (dun want to spend 200 dollar for it), but maybe for a new hairstyle? let's see. when we are done with all the things I am staying at clarke quy or taking the mrt to the sea (just 3 stations away from the central).

for today I am done, lol. I am tired, but relaxed and happy. just watching a little bit tv or reading and going early to bed, I think :D

so, take care, sweethearts :3

Anke

Current Mood: relaxed
Current Location: Fernloft Lavender, Singapore

So, in an hour Grace is picking me up for going to the tattoo convention, yay. I am prepared with a digi cam with full batteries and a lot of space :D

Today it seems like it would be a very, very hot day o.O
Maybe I should take a little bit sunlotion with me. would be better, ne?

I am still sleepy. I guess it was 3AM when I fell finally asleep and to crawl of my back this morning was really hard, lol.

Nya, don't have more to tell, rofl.

See u, honeybunnies XDDDDD

Current Mood: sleepy
Current Location: Fernloft Lavender, Singapore

lol. at first i have to say one thing. today i was so NOT in the mood for a concert, for going out or leaving the hostel. I was actually very grumpy because of this muggy heat. For a second i thought about staying in my room, but Sata said to me *go out and enjoy yourself* So, I did. And it was a good choice. It was a really good choice.

Actually, Rosie didn't pick me up today because she was working. wasn't so bad for me, because of thatI had to go alone out. I found a cab, I had a really awesome conversation about bollywood shows and seeling their tickets for 500 singapore dollars *what means 250 euro* with the driver and laughed a lot. The singapore indoor stadium is pretty impressing. and it is next to a river. not the singapore river, but another one. and the condominiums there are impressive. awesome. I made a lot of pictures.
There was a little bit of *beach* so I made some pretty pictures with the beach, the river, all the buildings behind. I sat there at the river, listened to Kangta and messaged with alecs.
maybe it sounded kitchy, but i felt so good and I wanted to share this moment with him, even when he didn't was in my near.

And by the way ... jutta? Ich hab Fotos von einem stein gemacht. Ich hab es dir gesagt!!! :D

Anyway, at first it was kinda hard for me. I was the only caucasian there, so everone, really everyone, looked or stared at me o.O
I felt so uncomfortable and was close to tears, so I messaged alecs again and told him, what I feel. He cheered me up and was there for me ♥
So, they opened the doors at 7.30PM. I went inside *between all those pretty asian people* and there was a table with stuff. I grabbed a noticebook with david tao on the cover, because it was for free. there were posters, too, but i didn't pick one because I was to shy o.O
So, I went to my place and i had a really awesome view to the stage. god, I was so close o.O
it was forbidden to take pictures in the hall and during the show, but everyone did it. So, I did it too *blushes*
And I was a bad girl, because ... I recored some of the songs with him. At first I recorded David at the stage ... before realizing that next to me was a huge screen, rofl. So I hope, I did it right ... I guess so, because the card of Juttas digicam is full now, lol.

So, I can't say one thing about the songs he sung. I have no idea about his songs. But he sang a lot of famous songs like Another Brick in the Wall, It's easy, All you need is love ... and he owned my heart when he sang FOXY LADY of Jimi Hendrix. Do u know that I love the songs of Jimi Hendrix since I am 17?
And I have to say one thing. He is an awesome guitar player. Awesome. I sat often there with an open mouth, staring at the screen, having goosebumps, lol.
And he is a pretty guy. Not bad for his 40 years. Actually he looks like he would be 32. He told us, that all the singapore women are damn pretty and he is single, searching for the love of his life.
Sometimes he spoke in english and he was so funny, that I laughed a lot. But in the middle of the sentence he changed into chinese, everyone laughed and I didn't understand one single word, lol.
I really have to learn chinese, seriously.

He is awesome. He invited a fan to come on the stage, held her hand and sang for her *I recorded that, hehe*. At one song he had a choir of singaporean kids on the stage and they sang with him. Jesus, that was ... whoa, just whoa. Very amazing.
And his voice is love, pure love. He can sing the highest tones and it sounds so awesome. His voice reminds me a little bit of Leehom Wang. Or is Leehom Wang singing like David Tao? lol.

He told some funny things about his life. That he learned playing guitar when he was very young. He learned while he was eating, while he was on toilet ... sometimes more than 30 minutes and his mum knocked like crazy on the door, asking him what he is doing, rofl.
Or learning during sleep. so he had 6 strings on his face in the morning and it wasn't cool to go to school like that :P

Or talking about his parents. That his dad loved elvis presley and his mum was a opera singer from the peking opera. So at night he heard his father singing *Love me tender* and then he heard his mum, singing chinese opera *and when u don't know what I mean, use youtube to watch it* peking opera can be very disturbing. he said that, too.

His manager Andy had his birthday today so we sang for him Happy Birthday, that was really cool. David tried really hard to cheer up the audience, but the singaporean people are really shy. He noticed that and then he left the stage, came to the barrier, yelled *screw the rules* and than we sang together.

there were a lot of children on the barrier and David stroked them, gave handshakes and kissed a little girl. Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww :3

Really amazing was, the concert started at 8.48PM and ended at 23.35PM!!! Isn't that amazing? I am still flashed of the concert and I have really to look for some of his cds here.

I've met two lovely and cute chinese girls and before the concert started, we talked about him, JJ Lin, ZaiZai and F4, rofl. They were so surprised that a german girl is interesting in chinese culture and music and staying here for 4 weeks. When I talked about coming here and staying here, both of them said to me: U really need a job here. U are knowing more than me about Singapore.
The whole time they said I should live here ... maybe, who knows? :)
So I will add them at facebook. We changed numbers and they wanna go out with me for dinner, yay :D

Isn't it amazing that I am meeting here so many interesting people who are liking me and interested in me and where I am from?
Shoe said to me: U are having an exciting life. And at the moment ... is it true :D

So, that is all from me.
I have to go off now, taking a short shower and going to sleep *next to saying my buddhist prayers* because of getting up at 9AM, preparing to go together with Grace for the tattoo convention. Yay!

Lots of Love,
Anke

Edit: At the end I snagged some of the posters, lol. XDDDD

Current Mood: ecstatic
Current Location: Fernloft Lavender, Singapore

I can not login into facebook and I don't have any idea why. when it works, my whole facebook side looks fucked up =(
That sucks because I wanted to send Kazuki-chan my cellphone number and wanted to see what is going on with my friends.
I think, maybe facebook is having some problems and I hope they will fix it as soon as possible.

So, I really woke up this morning at 6AM with a smile on my face. I came online maybe to catch Jutta, but she slept probably at 11PM? :D
So, I replied on some comments, went back to my single-room and tried to sleep. but I couldn't, maybe because i feel so happy, lol.

I think I will pack my stuff again in my bags to change my room. it is now 8AM, so I don't wanna wake up the other girl. Have to wait a little bit more =)

So, this morning I thought about yesterday and I really want to share something with u what made me giggling the whole time.
I told alecs that I really like it to listen to him when he is speaking chinese. So, we sat at the cab, I looked at him, smiled and said:
Alecs? Could you say something in chinese because I love it listening to u.
Alecs: Ni Hao? o.O
*burst out into laughters*
I know, that sounds so silly, but the way he said it and looked at me, I couldn't stop. He has an awesome humor and he nagged about me the whole time yesterday when we eat something, because I was too slow, lol.
And he has a really bad habit. When I've eaten he told me about the most disgusting dishes I have ever heard of it. Like eating living fishes or eating the eyes of a fish, frog, pork skin and whatever. The whole time I was yelling *eeeeeeeeeeeeew*
I guess, he liked it, lol.
He is awesome. Can't wait to see him again. yesterday night he send me a message again, but my cellphone was in my room, so I got his message this morning. what a lovely way to wake up :)

I'll send him a message later, when he woke up, because I am pretty sure he is still sleeping now.

So, that's all from me. And come on, people, give me comments, I have to answer something when I am coming online, lol.

Lots of Hugs =)

Anke

Current Mood: awake
Current Location: Fernloft Lavender, Singapore
Current Music: TV@Background

Today i made another beautiful experience. here at the hostel is a girl named sata. she is beautiful. when i saw her for the first time she got totally my attention. she said her name, gave me a handshake and smiled.
So, when I sat here at the *livingroom* she was next to me and I thought on a sentence which I ve read in the book that alecs gave me.
When u are having a positive thought, share it. u will make the other person happy and you, too.
So, I smiled at her and said: Sata, I have to say something to you. U are really beautiful, I love your stile. I think u are really a beautiful person.

And yes, so I broke the ice, the border. I did it. I did what I felt and she gave me her warmest smile and she opened up and we talked a lot. She is a hippie-girl with dreadlocks and she is having the most beautiful smile on earth and a deep heart and a very deep soul. I am so, so glad that I made this trip. That I am opening myself, starting to get re-born with every day. For now I am done with the people who hurt me. That was a lesson, not a mistake. They showed me my borders.
Now I am prepared for the good ones who are in my life. my family, jutta, my friends. I think I start to accept that they are loving me. Not asking anymore why they are doing that. They have their reasons. The most important thing is, they love me. Me. For what I am.

I hope that this journey is bringing me more such wonderful experiences, making me stronger, helping me to heal, to accept the dark path which I went through the last 5 years.

Love,
Anke

Current Mood: thoughtful
Current Location: Fernloft Lavender, Singapore
Current Music: Silence...

okay, hier bin ich. ich bin gut angekommen. der flug von frankfurt aus ging puenktlich, yay. hatte auch keine probleme in der tuerkei. bei nacht ueber istanbul zu fliegen ist echt genial. das sieht so wunderschoen und gross aus. wie gesagt, ich hatte keine verspaetung, aber wir haben dann mit dem flugzeug sehr lange auf der landebahn gestanden und so kam es doch wirklich noch zu einer 40-minuetigen verspaetung.
ich hab im flugzeug grade noch was gegessen, dann bin ich eingeschlafen bis etwa 40 minuten bevor wir in singapur angekommen sind. habe auch schon viele tolle fotos geschossen.
in singapur habe ich dann gute 2 stunden auf rosie gewartet, dann sind wir hier zum hostel. schade, dass es umgezogen ist. es ist zwar sauber hier und alle haben sie mich erkannt und sich sehr gefreut. bin aufgenommen worden wie ein verlorenes familienmitglied. leider haben wir keinen garten mehr hier und die jugendherberge liegt jetzt im vierten stock. da mein zimmer belegt ist, habe ich fuer heute nacht von ah-long das einzelzimmer bekommen :D
Rosie und ich sind dann erstmal hier um die Ecke rum und haben mir ein handy gekauft. eins fuer gute 40 euro, von sony. das reicht hier fuer den urlaub. die nummer poste ich dann auch noch, die liegt grad im zimmer und ich bin zu faul dahin zu gehen.

kann auch sein, dass ich ins hostel nach little india umziehe, aber das wuerde mich ein bisschen mehr kosten. ich weiss noch nicht, ob ich das mache, da ich ja hier alle leute kenne.

Gunjan habe ich auch schon getroffen :D
Jetzt sitze ich hier, gaehne und bin total muede. wollte aber noch ein bisschen mit gunjan reden. auf alle faelle melde ich mich morgen wieder.

dank jutta habe ich ja gehoert, dass du, papa und kiki doch noch gut nach hause gekommen sind. war doch ein bisschen yu viel fuer die kleine maus, oder? ich hoffe, es geht euch gut. ich werde mich hier regelmaessig melden, also mitlesen lohnt sich mama. und eins muss noch gesagt werden. weine nie wieder so wie am flughafen ;)
mir hat es ja fast das herz gebrochen und fuer ne weile wollte ich nicht mehr weg. aber geniesse die zeit ohne mich. obwohl ich dich jetyt schon vermisse. den rest auch, genauso wie mirko und kiki. knuddel die beiden dolle von mir.

wie gesagt, morgen mache ich nix, aber freitag abend geht es dann schon mal aufs konzert von david tao, yay. und wochenende dann tattoo convention, aber da ruf ich dann nochmal alecs und grace an.

so, das war es jetzt schon. an alle anderen auch liebe gruesse. und jutta, falls du das liest und zeit hast, darfst du auch schon mal gerne uebersetzen.

btw, 16 euro fuer eine stunde internet am flughafen sind WAY TOO MUCH
und 3,64 euro fuer eine dose fanta am flughafen von istanbul sind auch viel zu viel ;)

fuehlt euch geknuddelt
eure anke

Edit Jutta:
Translation for the non-German-speaking
http://asti-chan.livejournal.com/550562.html

Current Mood: groggy
Current Location: Fernloft Lavender, Singapore

Alles Liebe zum Nikolaus!!!
Wünsche euch einen ganz schönen Tag und vielleicht
bekommt ihr ja auch was süßes, da ihr alle so brav gewesen seid? ;)

Current Mood: awake
Current Location: my room
Current Music: Plastic Tree - 梟 [LIVE] | Powered by Last.fm

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