FRIENDS-CUT

[haebin]

I really thought a long time about taking this step is the right thing to do.
And I always kept on asking myself, is it the right thing? Will I hurt someone with this? But… in the end it’s not about the others. It’s about me, right?
And because of that I take this step. I will make a complete friends-cut. And delete all “friends” for the beginning. The question is because, why?

Clear answer: Because probably only a third is reading in here and I start to have the feeling, that most of the people are not interested in the things I write. So, why still be “friends”?
I don’t have to write comments in other LJs for people, who never write a comment in here.
I don’t await from everyone to comment every entry. But I noticed that some people are just friended. And I asked myself… why?
People I know for a long time, since the Gackt-concert in Taiwan, people I’m talking about messengers, don’t have to worry. Just write a short message in here and you’re back-friended ;)
People who never wrote something in here or just write senseless smilie-entries don’t have to read if I feel good or bad ;)

Icon-entries are always public and if I upload something, then I will share it with communities like dears.
That means you don’t have to friend me because of some icon entries or uploads =)
All entries which are “friends only” are extremely personal. And I don’t want to let anyone read them anymore =)

Take care
Anke

Comments

[haebin.livejournal.com]

So, I don't wanna force you to write comments, when you don't feel so. But I was a little bit angry about many people, they friended me the last time and never made a comment. So ... what do they want from me? I said, that this lj is extremely personal and important for me and it's a strange feeling to know, that strangers can read your intimate thoughts and fears. It's not so easy to talk about that, you know?
But okay, I'll add you back.

[nukucamui.livejournal.com]

No, I understand. I've been in very dark places as well, and I don't like tell people how I got there, because it brings back bad memories as well. It is hard to tell strangers how you feel about things. But, I don't think of you as a stranger. :) Like I said, I always want to comment, however for some reason I never get the chance to. It's not that I forget, it's just, once I am able to read your journals, it's been a day or so, and I get worried about commenting on a bad day that it may make the day become bad again. I worry about you Anke dear. *hugs and cuddles*

[haebin.livejournal.com]

Yes, I guess you are right. Talking about feelings or thoughts, everything what is personal, it's very hard. And it is for me hard too. Some people said to me: Hey Anke, why do you complain about yourself? You are always so honest and talk about everything.
Hm, that's right ... at the first moment. But they don't know, that I sit hours of hours in front of my screen, thinking about posting the entry or not.
And even when you are scared about your posting, it is important for me, what my friends are thinking. I don't wanna have pity for my whole situation. Some friends of mine are critizing me for my thoughts, but they make it in a gentle way and sometimes it's helping me. And you can wrote whatever you want :) *hugs you too*