Haebin

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I have a wonderful, adorable new header!
It looks so shiny and cheerful! Like a wonderful summer :3

This header was made by my lovely dear Mercedes!
Thank you so much for it! =D
*cuddles*

Okay, I’ll start in the morning :P
Random blabla at first *laughs*
I woke up at 9 AM and yes, I was nervous and totally bouncy at the same time. I mean, it was THE DAY, right? So, my only thoughts were about Dir en Grey. At 11 AM Jutta came to my home and I was so, so unbelievable happy to see her again :D
And thankful, that she joined me for the concert, because Dir en Grey is so NOT her type of music :P
But she survived it, don’t worry ^^
We had a nice lunch together with my family and Mirko. And Kiki of course. It was the first time that Jutta saw Kiki and yes, she fell totally in love with her. Like everyone :D

So, we decided to leave my home at 4.30 PM and when I sat in the car, I started to become extremely nervous. I was so nervous, that my hands started to shake. The drive to Saarbrücken was okay, just one hour, what is pretty few because normally we have to drive 2 hours (or more) to go to concerts of other Jrock-Bands.
Anyway, we arrived at the hall at 6 PM and I was surprised to see so few fans o_O
I mean, when I remember me on the first concert in Cologne, three years ago, the line of the people was soooooo long o_O
And there? It looks like only 300 people were waiting. What was kinda few ôO
So, we didn’t stand far away from the entry :P
And we didn’t have to wait long. The most of the fans were typical jrockers. Black clothes and so on. And we saw two gothic Lolitas. I thought: WHAT THE FUCK? Gothic Lolitas? Sorry, but not at a concert of Dir en Grey. And after that Jutta and I noticed three Japanese fans. One of them looked totally normal. But the other two looked like girls from Gackts clip “Koikuma Heaven” o_O
Totally overdressed, a really “impressive” (*rolleyes*) make-up and their clothes were … short. Damn short. I was really irritated to see girls like that.

Anyway, we had the luck to go in the club without huge problems (and the fans were kinda okay, not really huge pushing or screaming or something like that).

The club was really cool. It was not like the Live Music Hall, because the Live Music Hall is a very long hall. The “garage” is wider and everyone was able to see the stage very good.

So, we were one of the firsts in the hall, but the first four rows were already crowded. So, Jutta and I decided to climb on a box and we had a really fantastic view on the stage *_*
And I sat totally in the sight of Kaoru XDDDD

So, the concert started at 8 PM with “Sabir” … I was like “eh? What is going on?”, because on the concert ticket some special guest were announced o_O
But there was no other band ^^
Only Dir en Grey, but damn, that was enough for me :D

So, at first Shinya came on the stage, after him Die, Toshiya, Kaoru (\*_*/) and finally Kyo. Whoa, just wow.

Okay, to the outfits. Shinya wore a grey jeans and a white shirt, Die a Jeans and a black shirt, his hair was black and long ^^
Toshiya wore a black jeans (I think), a white singlet and a neck scarf (impressing, because it was fucking hot in the hall). And Kaoru wore a jeans and a black T-Shirt. That is enough for me to say, he is the most sexiest man for me on earth :P
Kyo wore a black jeans, too and a white T-Shirt. And I really love his hair, because now it has the length until his shoulder. It looks really good on him.

So, after Sabir they started with Vinushka, I think. And … whoa, I banged my head off, seriously. Jutta said, 80% of the concert I banged, lol. So … I think, I didn’t see a lot, lol.
The third song was Obscure. WHAT THE FUCK? Obscure, one of my favourite songs *_*
And Kyos voice is wow, just wow. When he is singing the really high tones, it is like he is able to pierce through your body and your soul. I felt so … so … totally caught by his voice. It is amazing, how he can use his voice. From the high tones too growling his soul out. Amazing. Some of the songs were so intense, that I really felt pain (yeah, I know it sounds strange, but I am a psychotic Borderliner, so I can’t handle emotions really well). I never, never met a singer in my whole life who is able to touch me so deeply. To touch my inner self, the “myself” I hide from everyone. No one. Except Kyo. One time he had a … echo on his microphone and you had the feeling, that his voice was embracing you. I closed my eyes and felt his voice and I noticed, that my eyes were full of tears. I really felt so many emotions, that I grabbed Jutta’s hand, to find some emotional secureness.
The other time he put his T-Shirt over his face and it remembered me on a living dead. It was so intense and when he hit his heart I thought: Yeah, I know this kind of pain.
I think, maybe a lot of people don’t feel like that, but for me Kyo is … he is sharing the same pain like me. When I listen to his songs, read his lyrics, I totally know what he is singing about. I know it. And maybe that is the reason, that Kyo is touching me so deeply.

So, like I said before, I didn’t saw a lot of the performance. The most of the time I closed my eyes, listened the music and banged like crazy (now I am feeling like 100, because I can’t move my neck anymore ._.). And I don’t remember at all of the songs, but Kyo sung a lot of Uroboros and of “The Marrow of a Bone”.
Some songs, I remember were:
Sabir, Vinushka, Obscure, Repetion of Hatred, Glass Skin, Agitated Scream of Maggots, Clever Sleazoid, Dozing Green, Disabled Complexes and … I don’t remember on the other ones. I try to find the setlist for the concert tomorrow :D

Dir en Grey made a 10 minute break, after that they came back for three songs. And they rocked like hell. Especially Kaoru warmed up a bit. The first part of the concert he stood the most of the time in the shadow ^^
Really bouncy was Toshiya, he encouraged the audience a lot. A really funny thing was Die, lol.
He had a ventilator in front of his, so his hair was constantly moving, lol.
He looked like a topmodel :D
I was so sad, that I didn’t have my digi cam with me, because I had an awesome view on the stage and the guys.
And when Kaoru was a little bit bold, he came to the front, stood on a box and banged :D
And yes, yes, yes! THAT WAS SO FUCKING HOT! And we had eye contact XDDDDD
Kaoru noticed me :D
Probably he thought: Oh my fucking god, what is she doing there? She looks totally crazy
>PPPP

But he is awesome. At the end of the concert, something really rare happened. Kyo applauded to the audience and then … he laughed! OMFG! Kyo laughed! I was so happy to see him like that. And the best thing was that he seemed so happy and proud. I really, really love the thought that their first one-man-concert in Germany were so great for them :D
Everyone (except Shinya) applauded to us and … and wow, just wow. I was so overwhelmed with my feelings (and still am ^^). When the lights went on, I laid half dead at the box and tried to realize what happened to me. But I couldn’t. And I still try to realize all the emotions they broke out yesterday evening. I really can’t find the words to describe what I felt. Maybe Jutta can try to explain, how I looked and how my impression was ^^ *laughs*

After finishing the concert, I bought the “The Rose Trims Again”-Tour-DVD and a T-Shirt.

I am so excited about Berlin. Unfortunately, I can’t bang there because two days before I have this huge tooth surgery ;_;
And after banging for nearly two hours yesterday I am having toothaches again =/
That means … nope, not banging at Berlin ;_;
But hey, maybe God has a good day and I have the luck to get an autograph and maybe a picture with Kaoru together :>
That would be the best birthday present for me ever :D

So, I know I had an awesome time. I banged my head off, I screamed (of course only between the song breaks) and I sung like crazy. This was the best concert in my life. And I think, no other artist can top this :>

So, that’s all from me. Hope, you enjoyed it :D

Anke~

Today is THE day! Oh my fucking god, finally it is the day! I'll see Dir en Grey live!!! :D
Can't wait! And I swear, I am counting the seconds. I am so, so happy and excited, bouncy and nervous at the same time. Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah .... gosh, YAY! :D

Now I am waiting for Jutta and around 4.30 PM we'll drive to Saarbrücken. I don't want to wait for hours and hours and I don't wanna stay in the first row ^^
I only want to enjoy the concert, listen Kyo and screaming when Kaoru is standing in the front, being an awesome hot guitarist XDDD

OMFG, I can't believe it. Just one day, one fucking day. WAH, I am so nervous, bouncy and excited at the same time :D

Finally, after three years, I'll see Dir en Grey again. I can't wait, seriously. And I am pretty sure, I can't find sleep tonight *laughs*
God, I wanna see them so, so badly. I can't wait to bang my head off XDDD

And one of the best things ever: Jutta is coming with me :D

*takes a deep breath* ... waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah, tomorrow I'll see Kaoru! YAY!!!

I can’t believe it. Only three days and I’ll see Dir en Grey live. Finally! After three years. Gosh, slowly I start to become nervous. I can’t wait for it, seriously. The music, Kyos voice, the athmosphere, seeing Kaoru. Wow, just wow. I am so, so excited. When I am listening music of Diru, I feel like my heart is start to bumping like crazy.

And Kaoru … he is SO my type of a guy, seriously. His whole behaviour, his style, he is … the perfect boyfriend for me ^^
I was always (since my puberty) attracted by rockers/rockstars. A guy like Gackt is in my taste of guys a huge exception. ^^
And I realize that I start to fall back in my old habit :P

Today I found two cute pics of Kaoru and yesh, he is SO MY TYPE :P

You know, when I see him, I know, he is a true guy. Drinking beer, smoking, fucking girls. Yeah, that is how to live, bitches >P





Yeah … you know, you are really cool, ne? >P

And I found a blog-entry of Kaoru and he is just cool. Just cool. He doesn’t care about others. He is talking about his work and you can see, how important it is for him. I like the fact, that he doesn’t care about the bitchy talks of his fans :D

Fans believe that I've turned 'emo' for some reason...Just cause I don't feel like going into detail on my answers in interviews. Or when I change the subject or something. I just don't wanna talk about it. That's all there is to it. I don't wanna talk about feelings and how others should feel during a song. It's not being 'emo', whatever the fuck that is. I can't speak for the others with there emotions or how they feel, when the interviewers ask. They speak for themselves. I can't do that for them.

And there I go, talking about work again. Damn...Screw this, I'm getting a beer.


He is awesome, so awesome. A pure, honest guy. Like a man has to be for me *_*

Today my mum got a call from the hospital. Next Tuesday she has to go again and on Wednesday (my birthday) is her surgery. Great timing ^^

Nya, that’s all from me, take care :)

Anke~


An awesome drawing of Kyo :3

01. Anyone who looks at this entry has to post this meme and their current wallpaper at their LJ.
02. Explain in five sentences why you're using that wallpaper!
03. Don't change your wallpaper before doing this! The point is to see what you had on!

( Come on and click me )

God, I watched the best movie ever. I am so impressed and it was amazing. I am totally speechless about the movie. At first I was a little bit sceptic because movies from china aren't good (at least the ones I've seen). But this one was amazing. Go, watch it! You won't regret it! <3

Awesome, just awesome!
You have to watch it!!!

You know, I can browse for hours and hours through deviantart. I love it. And because I am not allowed to eat and drink (yup, I had an appointment with my dentist today) I decided to upload pictures/drawings again :D
Enjoy it :3 (...if anyone is interested in it ^^)

( Silent Dreaming )