LOL

IT IS SO FUCKING HOT HERE!!!!!!

;DDDDDDDDDD

what the fuck?

I can not open the door to my room, ahahahahahaha >D
awesome, that is so typical for me, lol. alecs tried to call me and I was under the shower. And now I can not open my doorroom. there is my cellphone and my money, which I need because I WANT to drink something! I hope, Ah Long or Grace (the one from the hostel) is coming back in a few minutes and will fix it. If not, I am dead, lol.

And yay for meaningless entries like this, rofl.

Anke

I am NOT really prepared for those heat

so, in five minutes i will leave the hostel, going to the next seven/eleven and buying bottles of water and instant noodles, lol. need something to eat, but drinking is more important. after that i will call alecs.
like i wrote it yesterday i bought a cheap cellphone (around 40 euros) and I am so NOT used to it, lol. maybe i will buy me a better one at the end of the trip or i will wait until i get the cellphone of mirko.
oh by the way, here we have chinese television. muahahahaha. i don't understand one single word, but it feels like living in a chinese\taiwanese dorama :D
so, i am off. see u later (when I am totally exhausted because of the heat, rofl) :D
Anke

Nom nom :3

So, here I am with my first cup of chinese instant noodles. nom nom nom >3

Edit; Oh, it was so damn tasty. do u have any idea how yummy instant noodles can be?
Now I am doing nothing. maybe reading a little bit. at 3pm I will change my room, so after that I can put my clothes in the closet and so on. I mean, I have the next 4 weeks for being around, ne? So, for tomorrow is the concert and for the weekend the tattoo convention. after that we will see.

oh, by the way. at the airport I saw three tattooed guys. I am pretty sure i will see them on the convention again, lol >D

tattoo, tattoo, tattoo!!!

me iz having an appointment with alecs tattoo master at saturday around 12 to get a new tattoo. I don't know the design, I don't know how much it cost, but I can't wait for it. I am so, so excited =D
And one more thing ... i get the tattoo on the tattoo convention with a lot of viewers and a lot of attention because it is the handpoke method. but I am fine. And grace is joining me, too! So, yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyy! I am so thankful, that alecs made this appointment because normally they don't have any time for visitors at a convention.

so...

HOW FUCKING AWESOME IS THAT???????

ASTI IS GETTING A NEW TATTOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

O.O

I am off to seeing Alecs now...

O_O

This was one of the best days in my life

Seriously. That was one of the best days in my life.
I am happy. I can't write down what I feel right now. Being happy, thankful, emotional, full of joy, satisfied, still nervous, in love. all together.

so, at first. ME IS HAVING TWO BRANDNEW TATTOOS NOW!

Yes, i couldn't wait anymore, but that was alecs fault, lol. he brought me to his thai tattoo master, saying to me, oh, you have to take a look, meeting the people and so on. and what happened? I decided to get two new tattoos. lol. on the right side I had five spirituel lines and the meaning is for luck, health, money, attraction, love and so on. on the left side is the sign of the master, a spirituel protection. and yes, it was handpoke. and trust me, that was a NEW level of PAIN. gosh, i had tears in my eyes and I broke nearly alecs hand, lol. two guys had to hold me because it was so painful. and alecs was strong and brave, too, because he had some wounds on his hands and I pushed his hand so hard, lol.

Do u know what is awesome? at first alecs and me sending messages via cellphone. after that we had a chat via facebook and we talked about getting the thai tattoo. so, I asked him when we want to see each other and he said, what the heck, we can meet now.
I was like ... WHAT THE FUCK? O.O
But I said yes and I was so, so fucking nervous. so, we wanted to meet at the lavender foot quarter. the only place i know, lol. so, he took a cab there, but we didn't find each other, lol. So we talked via cellphone and I couldn't understand him so well, but we met us. and to see him was like ... whoa. whoa. we both smiled and hugged and then he bring me around. I have the feeling that I saw the whole city tonight, lol. We went to the victoria street, to a temple, we prayed together, I gave him his present and I made the right choice because at them moment he is reading a book about the budhism, too, yay. so, he was very happy. I saw so much and we talked about so much and we laughed. and he was so worried that I would be shocked to see him *because he thinks he is too fat*.
Actually last night he had a fight in bar because he was drunk *ehem* und his eye was swollen and black, LOL. so, the whole time he asked me, can u see it? Is it swollen?
So, we eat something. It was an unusual experience for me. It was a peanut soup with some meat/balls. some of the balls had red beans and so on. it was okay, lol.

so, but before we went out for dinner we went to the thai tattoo studio. and yes, I got a tattoo. and it was painful. I was so happy that alecs held my hand. he doesn't like physical contact with other people but he looked fine and he smiled and watched me. It was ... whoa. At the end of the tattoo I got some prayers and the blessing of the master. u know, when i was in therapy my therapist said always to me, take a deep breath, anke. But I never could do it. I was always so caged inside myself. Today I did it when I got the blessing and it was an awesome spiritual experience. I felt so ... *being deep, feeling myself, my true self what was hiding for so long...
I want more. Actually I wanted to do at the convention, but I prefer getting the tattoo there, because it is intimate. and the master is ... whoa. I never met such a warm, deep kinded person like him.

so, alecs want to message me on sunday because we are going to the fortune teller at monday. And then ... let's see ;)

lots of love,
anke

i am off now to talk with gunjan :D

Love u all!!!

Sata

Today i made another beautiful experience. here at the hostel is a girl named sata. she is beautiful. when i saw her for the first time she got totally my attention. she said her name, gave me a handshake and smiled.
So, when I sat here at the *livingroom* she was next to me and I thought on a sentence which I ve read in the book that alecs gave me.
When u are having a positive thought, share it. u will make the other person happy and you, too.
So, I smiled at her and said: Sata, I have to say something to you. U are really beautiful, I love your stile. I think u are really a beautiful person.

And yes, so I broke the ice, the border. I did it. I did what I felt and she gave me her warmest smile and she opened up and we talked a lot. She is a hippie-girl with dreadlocks and she is having the most beautiful smile on earth and a deep heart and a very deep soul. I am so, so glad that I made this trip. That I am opening myself, starting to get re-born with every day. For now I am done with the people who hurt me. That was a lesson, not a mistake. They showed me my borders.
Now I am prepared for the good ones who are in my life. my family, jutta, my friends. I think I start to accept that they are loving me. Not asking anymore why they are doing that. They have their reasons. The most important thing is, they love me. Me. For what I am.

I hope that this journey is bringing me more such wonderful experiences, making me stronger, helping me to heal, to accept the dark path which I went through the last 5 years.

Love,
Anke